Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear
The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you
It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do

Monday, February 9, 2009

i'm lost!!

"I can't live without you"
>>> dis is de BIGGEST LIE i've ever heard!!

it's been a while...
i tot it's over...but suprisingly, i found out dat it's stil bothering me somehow..
b4 i get into my dream last nite, suddenly i tot of him..
still, a lil bit missing of him..de calling n text msgs...mayb i stil cant get used to de life without his existence..
in de evening, i deleted him on facebook...a relief to me..
cuz i'm unsatisfied..
when i saw his shoutout posted "i'm going to del my old blog, u guys pls read it for de last time if u wan" sth like dat, cant rmb de exact 1..
i was totally pissed off..funny huh?
cuz im de one who ended all dis, y am i stil care about wad he did?it's none of my business..
im lost in de middle of nowhere..
someone said im running away..
mayb i did, but i juz wanna run away now n nvr look back!


it started since de day he wanna lose contact wif me..
ok, now he wanna del his blog..
mayb it's nthg but there's sth implied..
i wont mind if he has a happy life now n we're still keep in touch..
but im unsatisfied if his life is better than me n without me!
i might act a bit mean here but dis is how i felt now..
mayb i juz don like to b defeated..i always wanted to b de winner...
but there's nthg wrong to admit it, juz wanna bcom a normal girl..
has he forgotten me?
he finally can put it down n live his life huh? de past has been left behind?

in any event, i should feel happy fo him right?
but sry to say dat im not dat generous...
it's hard to accept someone who said nids u when u leave but live better than u when u're not there...
if he can live without me, y cant i?
if im gone in his world, then he shall not exist in mine too..
i dont wanna live beneath his shadow..
somethin or some1 which is not worth to b kept, i'll forget it...
dat's it!
* the end *

Sunday, February 8, 2009

林俊杰 - 期待爱

My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在裡面放 一份爱
Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我 实实在在
不管帅不帅
想要找回来 自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢 大声说出来
期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
妳的存在 心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来 是因为爱
我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 靠越近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始 就是放手去爱
幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

Saturday, February 7, 2009

My uGly LittLe SeCreT

i never wanna talk about dis again..
but i cant lie to myself, it's still haunting me.....

officially, my 1st relatioship started when i was in form4 ...
it was a totally bad experience to me, only 1 word to describe it >>> 'SUCKS'!
all i rmb was those horror memories...

i was once an active girl, very talktive, an extrovert, a dreamer, a girl who act according to her emotions n never hide it....i trusted ppl, mix n mess wif everyone, i live wif no worries...a happy go lucky girl..
while i was in relationship, i slowly turned into another person...it's de effect of it.
despite sharing sweet times 2gether like normal couples did (but actually i couldnt rmb any of it now, even if i did, they taste bitter), we argued days n nights....n i lost many frens cuz i was force to neglct them..even close frens, im really upset wif dat..
he got a very bad tempered, i wondered how did i past through dat period of time....1 n 1/2 years, it's not a short while! even his fren came to ask me how can i stand him for his tempered...


my time was really wasted on him...n seriously i boycott Virgorians since then...
sometimes i even talked lies to my parents n argued wif them juz to meet him...my relation wif my family was at quite a critical point at dat moment.. i managed to repair it somehow, blood is thicker than water...i cant abandon my family as they r de root of who i am now..
i did tings which im not willing to do juz bcz of him...tings which i hate...n finally i hate myself of doing it..
if u ask me de reason, i guess de ans wil b 'love is blind'...

de nightmare finally ended...but im no more de origin me.
i talk less, i dont trust ppl, i keep tings in my heart n refuse to tell, i bcame moody, passive, i feel sad when im alone, lost self-confident n i hate myself for being so not 'me' anymore..
i was so disappointed by love, dont blame me if i have so many negatives thoughts about love..
i tink dat love it is not a gud ting, it makes ppl blind n did stupid tings..i was being such a stupid girl dat time n i promise myself dat i never wana b a stupid anymore...
i cant b dat way forever.. i cant let it ruin my whole life!
i wanna be myself again...

it takes really a long time for me to recover..n til now i don tink dat i had completely overcome it..
somehow i cant be de girl i am like b4....
i might seen like im happy wif my life now, but deep inside im confused.. "am i really happy?"
it bcame a flaw in my life..for eternal..

i was considered lucky after dat..de ppl i had affair wif treat me very gud n they r great..but unfortunately they dont last long..
mayb dis is y ppl say im cold blooded..
i can tell u dat im serious while im in relationship, but i oso mean it if i wanna giv up...
cuz i don trust love, i hav no courage to it..i've tried to love but finally i giv up easily.. im worried dat i'll b blinded by love again n did stupid tings, sacrificing everything but end up crying like de end of de world bcuz someone forsake u!

i wil never wanna make de same mistake again...
perhaps im selfish, i rather hurt ppl than hurting myself..
my heart is already broken into pieces...love cant convince me..
promises r broken dreams, forever is juz an illusion, changes wil never stop..!

i prefer to bcum close fren wif someone i like than having a relationship..ironically, love makes me feel embarrass...i cant accept it wif an open heart n i dunno y...
neway, dis doesnt mean dat im phobia in love..
love has its gud point after all.. love can soften a violent beast n make one self determined in sth...
im still searching for de answer..
will i ever meet de right person at de right time..?

life is full of obstacles, we nid to b strong in every aspect..
someway, somehow..i hope dat someone can repair de broken pieces of me n cure de wound....

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Gudbye.. 开希..

2day, he had past away..due to a serious accident...
though i juz knew him for a month, but i know dat he is a nice person, a gud fren..
we knew each other through a trip..dat was de 1st time we met..
de 2nd time is during CNY chu3 nite, my fren held a party at her house..
i was invited n we got de chance to gather again...
but i never knew dat dis is de last time we met...
it was all so sudden..a 'BANG'! n a life is gone...FOREVER..!
he was my fren's best fren..
de one she called almost everyday, whenever she has problem, sad or happy..
she juz love to stick wif him..
now dat he's gone...........
de only person she can always rely on is gone!
there r so many promises left undone!
it's really hard to accept...
he has now disappeared from dis world..
but i believe he lives in her heart everyday til de rest of her life...
i can understand how she felt cuz i really felt it too...
it is unspeakable..only pain in de heart n tears on de face..
Jen,
though he is not there for u now,but u stil hav us..
u stil hav ur parents n frens around u..
we really CARE for u n willing to help u whenever u nid it..
be strong...!


dis is de only pic i took wif him 2gether..
let's treasure our love ones b4 it's too late...
becareful while u're on de road.....for de sake of ur loved ones...



轿车失控撞丛林翻覆 拉曼生头破死
二零零九年二月一日 晚上六时五十三分


(双溪大年1日讯)新春相聚酿悲剧!数名华青聚会畅谈至凌晨后,分乘2轿车从双溪大年返回莪占必叻途中,其中1车失控撞入路旁丛林翻覆至四轮朝天,导致1死1伤。

司机受伤
失控肇祸的丰田VIOS越过路旁沟渠后,撞入丛林连续翻覆数圈,才四轮朝天搁在距离大路约20多尺的草丛中,司机在车祸中受伤进院,惟前座乘客则撞破头颅,当场惨死。

这起死亡车祸是于周日年初七凌晨约2时,发生在美农双溪督巴旺大路。

根据知情人士表示,案发时数名友好相聚后分乘2车从双溪大年准备返回莪占必叻的住家,岂料


在抵达上述地点时其中一辆乘坐2人的丰田VIOS轿车失控翻覆,2名友好1死1伤。

案发后,由于死者被夹在毁不成形的轿车内,因此召来消拯员到场把车门撬开,才能把死者遗体移出。

现场所见,肇祸轿车被撞得形如废铁,翻覆在距离20多尺的草林内,死者头颅被撞破,脑浆四溢,部分脑髓粘在树枝上,四处血迹斑斑。

死伤者是邻居兼小学同学
死者被证实是现年21岁的张开希,伤者则是21岁的洪冠群,2人皆来自吉中莪占必叻皇莎园,是邻居兼小学同学。

死伤者家属也在接获噩讯后赶到现场,获悉车祸酿成1死1伤,不禁悲从中来,令这个新春也蒙上了一片忧伤。

瓜拉姆拉县交警到场调查后,把死者遗体载往苏丹阿都哈林医院太平间进行解剖。

传车内有3人惟只发现2人
车祸发生后,现场传出肇祸轿车内有3人,惟消拯员及交警寻遍半小时仍没有发现另一名“乘客”。

消拯员到场把死者遗体移出后,受伤司机由友人送院治疗,但却传出车上当时乘坐3人,另一人不知所踪。
当时,消拯员及交警纷纷以手电筒在阴暗的环境下四处搜寻,交警查案官更重复检查了翻覆至四轮朝天的车子,结果半小时后仍然没有任何发现。
较后大家才从一名知情人士口中获得证实,载着3人的是另一辆轿车,肇祸车子当时仅有死者及伤者。
此外,目击者指肇祸的轿车当时与另一辆轿车疾速从大年驶往莪仑方向,惟其中一辆却在超速情况下失控肇祸。
警方较后证实该辆车子属于受伤司机的父亲,查案官将在较后向伤者录取口供,以查证车祸肇因。
热爱旅游摄影 死者为人积极乐观
热爱旅游、摄影及运动的死者是槟城拉曼生,原本周日上午将返回学院开课,岂料却在凌晨遇车祸丧命!
现年21岁的死者张开希,生前是个积极乐观的大好青年,外表俊俏的他平时很会打扮自己,更活跃于摄影及运动。
趁华人农历新年从槟城返回莪占必叻家乡与家人欢聚,想不到却在开课前一天,与友好相聚后在归家途中丢命。

死者是莪占必叻脚车商张海珊(55岁)的二儿子,死者尚有1哥3弟,胞兄张欣帝(22岁)在吉隆坡读书,弟弟则是张永能(4年级)、张东绅(1年级)及排行最小的今年仅4岁。

死者胞兄张欣帝受询时指出,周六晚上约10时半,弟弟由邻居接载外出,但并没有表示前往何处,直到凌晨家人接到通知时,弟弟经已出事。

他表示,弟弟与轿车司机(伤者)是小学同学,也是隔壁邻居,2人分别在槟城2间学院就读。

他也说,生前热爱旅游的死者,几天前才与家人出外游玩,活跃于运动的死者也是羽球好手,同时也热衷于摄影,是个大好青年,他的离去让家人悲痛万分。

相关照片
■ 肇祸丰田轿车四轮朝天,毁不成形。













■ 死者撞破头颅被夹车内,劳动消拯员到场撬开车门才能把遗体移出。












■ 交警到场调查时重复检查,以确保没有其他伤者受困车内。













■ 死者张开希(21岁)生前在槟城拉曼学院念会计科系。