end of 2008

hah...bad ending again...
it's not wad i always wanted..
perhaps i shouldnt giv it a try, or else it wont end up like dis...

im sorry that i gav him hope n then took it away from him
he told me that i made him realised that he has a heart, i taught him wad is love...
n he finally had tears for some1 who is leaving him..
im really glad that i made his live better, though is juz 1 n half months..
but i don tink dat im worth for it, it's nth to b happy n sad about me..

im sorry for wad i did n wad i said..
i made him waited for me for 3hours long dat day..
he was expected for a date that we haven been for 3 weeks long..
but what i did was a crash to him..
i screw up everything!
de words i said hurt him a lot..
but i juz wanna be honest..
i cant lie to him n even myself..so i decided to speak out de true feeling inside me..

i tot if i try, i can giv him more love n treat him wif my whole heart..
but i juz cant make it..
it juz feel not right..
i tink dis is de best way for us..
he deserves a better 1..

dis will be a lesson for me, n him as well..
hurting him might hurt myself too..
not that im not sad cuz i wanted to break up..
but at de same time, i lost myself..
i really hav to settle down now..

new year is coming..
i hope that everything bad wil b gone...
i wanna hav a new start without looking back..
dis wil be de end of 2008..
feel blessed when u hav what u wan..
appreciate everything even if u don own it..
may 2009 brings me a brighter life!