It's been a few days since my last post about him. (Just three days ago, more than one right? haha!!) All I want to say is, the more I know of him, the more I don't want to fall for him. It's kinda complicated and I don't think I have a good understanding of it although it's my problem. Haha.
A friend of mine told me that she has a friend who is likely to act like her soulmate. Since the first time they met, they were like 10 years friends and can just share anything with each other. But then, the 'soulmate' is not her boyfriend and she said he couldn't become her boyfriend, but he is likely to be or perhaps, maybe he'll have the chance to be her soulmate? LOL. I'm confused now because the situation that my friend was saying actually happened on me, I guess. Right after the day I posted about him, we chatted as normal at night. But this time, we shared more, more than what we normally did. I'm suprised that he can just tell me anything, including his past, his mother and also his girlfriend. I asked him why is he trusting me so much and tell me so much about him, he answered because he treated me as friend, but normally he won't tell that to people. What does he mean? I doubt that he is giving me an honest answer. Think twice, maybe he really just treated me as a good friend. A friend whom he can share anything with, like a guardian angel. ;O It doesn't matter actually because I know I should not be with him no matter what. He got them all, family and lover. He has a great lover who I can never a good one and he is indeed very 'xing fu' right now, that's all I know. Honestly, I will feel sorry to him if he loses what he has now. I know I should't like him because even if he likes me back, I would not want to hurt the innocent girl. I felt really bad and hurt when think of this. I'm fond of someone who can never and shouldn't be mine. The feeling is 10 times worse than when you see the last pair of shoes that you love and it's not your size! You can say that I'm stupid that this is self-inflicted, I'm the one who put myself into this situation and I will be responsible for my own liability.
Another friend of mine felt vexed because the girl whom he liked rejected him and this time, she told him to give up which she never tells him to. My friend is a guy with such a strong determination and too positive thinking (sometimes) which I felt it will be quite terrible if I met someone like him and he insisted that he will not give up several times. This time, when the girl asked him to give up, he was so moody and he hesitated. He asked me for some advice whether should he give up. Look at myself, I can't tell him to really give up because I'm the one who is not giving up right now. I told him the consequences of being in such a bad situations and asked him to follow his own decision. Both are my friends but they are not happy when the girl talked about someone else. Love should not be selfish as people said, "if you love something, set it free. It will come back to you if it's yours" which I believe is quite true. But sometimes, the chance is just there and we have to grab it. It won't be yours if you didn't give it a try at all. There will be no rainbow if you miss this one, right in front of you. It is really confusing; Whether should give up or not, it only depends of one's state of mind. It is easy. I really miss those days when we're sitting in the class happily together, without worries, without anger, only smiles on our faces. I believe that this problem will be dealt with some day, it's just a matter of time. Have a good fortune.
p/s: I'm tired but I can't sleep, feel like crying but there's no tears.
A friend of mine told me that she has a friend who is likely to act like her soulmate. Since the first time they met, they were like 10 years friends and can just share anything with each other. But then, the 'soulmate' is not her boyfriend and she said he couldn't become her boyfriend, but he is likely to be or perhaps, maybe he'll have the chance to be her soulmate? LOL. I'm confused now because the situation that my friend was saying actually happened on me, I guess. Right after the day I posted about him, we chatted as normal at night. But this time, we shared more, more than what we normally did. I'm suprised that he can just tell me anything, including his past, his mother and also his girlfriend. I asked him why is he trusting me so much and tell me so much about him, he answered because he treated me as friend, but normally he won't tell that to people. What does he mean? I doubt that he is giving me an honest answer. Think twice, maybe he really just treated me as a good friend. A friend whom he can share anything with, like a guardian angel. ;O It doesn't matter actually because I know I should not be with him no matter what. He got them all, family and lover. He has a great lover who I can never a good one and he is indeed very 'xing fu' right now, that's all I know. Honestly, I will feel sorry to him if he loses what he has now. I know I should't like him because even if he likes me back, I would not want to hurt the innocent girl. I felt really bad and hurt when think of this. I'm fond of someone who can never and shouldn't be mine. The feeling is 10 times worse than when you see the last pair of shoes that you love and it's not your size! You can say that I'm stupid that this is self-inflicted, I'm the one who put myself into this situation and I will be responsible for my own liability.
Another friend of mine felt vexed because the girl whom he liked rejected him and this time, she told him to give up which she never tells him to. My friend is a guy with such a strong determination and too positive thinking (sometimes) which I felt it will be quite terrible if I met someone like him and he insisted that he will not give up several times. This time, when the girl asked him to give up, he was so moody and he hesitated. He asked me for some advice whether should he give up. Look at myself, I can't tell him to really give up because I'm the one who is not giving up right now. I told him the consequences of being in such a bad situations and asked him to follow his own decision. Both are my friends but they are not happy when the girl talked about someone else. Love should not be selfish as people said, "if you love something, set it free. It will come back to you if it's yours" which I believe is quite true. But sometimes, the chance is just there and we have to grab it. It won't be yours if you didn't give it a try at all. There will be no rainbow if you miss this one, right in front of you. It is really confusing; Whether should give up or not, it only depends of one's state of mind. It is easy. I really miss those days when we're sitting in the class happily together, without worries, without anger, only smiles on our faces. I believe that this problem will be dealt with some day, it's just a matter of time. Have a good fortune.
p/s: I'm tired but I can't sleep, feel like crying but there's no tears.
4 comments:
ur eng getting poorer d ><
ya meh? sorry lo.. my english merosot d
oh...new lover....not bad...since so long i drop by ur blog haha..anything new can share ?hahaha..who r u talking abt lolz...after reading also sooooo blluuurrrr haha...duno who is who n who u talking abt hehe
no new lover la... so xing fu meh. so near, yet so far... interpret it. hehe.
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