Wednesday, November 26, 2008

a new challenge in my life

13 nov 2008..
never expect dis relationship to happen so fast..
im glad to know him.. he makes me love n too be loved again..
i shall put my faith in dis relationhip too as he does..
but for de very 1st time.. we got a lil arguement yesterday..
it was de 13th day since we both b 2gether..
de argue was unplanned...n it related to 1 of his best fren..
well, wad should i say..
actually im de one who started it cuz i walked out on him after our conversation in msn..
my heart felt uneasy when we're in de conversation, so i left it..
i felt dat there's a gap between me n his fren, a big gap..
mayb cuz de language we use n our background..
i cant pretend to talk naturally...i felt stress n suffocating...
i dunno y it'll happen..
mayb i giv myself pressure cuz we'e different..
i swear i din hate anyone else but myself..i hate myself fo being so lame....
y cant i talk like usually i do? i really hate it when such tings happen..
i left him guilt for hours dat i left without giving any reasons...
i failed to keep my promise to be honest to him..it's juz hard to tell sometimes especially when to protect our pride..
it's juz so hard to say it although it's simple n nth big..
n i too tink it's quite silly....
finally, we bcom cool n chat like normal again..
when i tink back, de feeling is still there..
mayb i'm giving myself too much pressure n too worry about how ppl tink of me..
i hope dat i can overcome dis feeling cuz it's awful..
i juz wanna make it easy juz to communicate wif anyone...
n im not giving up easily in dis relationship..
im sure i can do better than b4...

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