Im Free!

Whooa....

I did it!! For one day, I didn't online or even Facebook although I'm in the room for the whole day!!! wahaha.. Suddenly feel so proud of myself xD

Last night I was SO IN MOOD to study, you should have seen how serious am I, haha! I studied until 5am and woke up at 7am for my last major paper, Consti. (Last minute punya kaki, LOL)

The previous paper I was having before today was totally sucks! Never thought that I'll die in TITAS, past years didn't help at ALL!! wth.. The person who scores A in this paper sure is super lucky or really study hard for it, haha..

After 3 weeks of studying and exams, I'm totally in a "panda-look" now, swt...

After Consti exam, me and Carol went to Mid Valley and Arif, the only guy fetched us there.

Our main purpose is to do facial treatment at New York Skin Solutions, the treatment costs Rm280............and guess what, it's FREE!!!!!! wahahaha~

My super kind and rich coursemate Tan Joes Nan gave us both a voucher for the treatment, haha. Thanks a million dude ^^

Was so excited when he asked me whether I have interest to it or not because since I enter Uni, my face condition is getting worse somemore now is in exam fever!! LoL....The timing was really accurate.

So we made an appointment with the consultant today and went to do the facial treatment. 

I was quite excited because this is my first time, haha..........

We reached there just in time, tepat pada pukul 4pm. Must thanks to our super "pro" driver because he always took the wrong road or missed the turn, so we managed to reach there just in time! Not early and not late, wahahaha....It's a blessing =)

I never have experience in facial treatment, so not really know how it is, just heard that it will be painful... 

We began the facial treatment after the consultant explained what skin problem we're having now. 

There were basically 4 steps but i don't really remember, paise...

When she was pressing out the acnes, blackheads and whatsoever out, it was quite painful but at least I didn't drop my tears. (I think so)

The most awesome part is when it came to the last part, I don't know what is the thing but it was super cooling....so so nice, I think I fell asleep while doing the treatment, haha..But just for a while because my bladder was getting full ><>

And after the treatment, the battle began...She was trying to consult and persuade us to purchase a package of treatment or buy their products to be their member, so that next time if we want to buy the products, we can get a 50% discount. And this offer is only on today, because we were actually introduced to there by a friend, so if we left without anything, we won't get this price for the next time we come.

I wasn't attracted to the package of treatment, but..........I was accidently persuaded by her to buy the products for RM 500!! *shit* hahaha.....

I actually used my ATM debit card to paid it...Where did I so much money? This is because I didn't spend much for almost one month or more, lol....Hope the products really work la, if not,  whatever solutions are you, you're just bullshit, and I'm the stupidious who bought the shit,hahha....

Well, anyway this is the vouchers we got from Nan2..

After the payment, we went to meet Arif for dinner with the NYSS paper bag in my hand, now everyone know I went there, quite embarrassing actually..wahaha....

We wanted to watch a movie, but the time wasn't suitable cause we have to be back by 11pm to celebrate Charlie's birthday according to Chinese Lunar Calendar (his real birthday is on 21 May and it is already sem break by then).

So here are the pictures of our meals...

Opps, before that, this is us after the facial treatment, haha...

Arif's Pork Rice 

(actually is Chicken Rice, he just wanted to cheat us but the joke is lame xD)

Carol's Fish n Chips + Creamy soup + her fingers (haha...)

And this is my Spaghetti with tomato sauce + creamy soup

(Yummy.......^^)

Lastly.....Happy Birthday Charlie!!!!! He is the most gentleman and good guy...hahaha...

(p/s: hope he won't addict to clubbing, wahhaha....)

A Short Note

To dear readers and friends:

I've created another blog adress, you can see it from my profile.

But I've decided to keep it's privacy.

If you are my close friend, you can request me to invite you. 

If I did not do so, I give my sincere apology. Truly apprecaite your understanding =)

MLS

This is the hardest subject in my finals ever!

It's not that the subject is very hard, but reading it is killing me words by words..

I'm so slow in the reading progress, it took me hours for a few pages, swt!

Maybe I really don't have any interest in this subject, that's why it is so hard for me to read it.

Ya, damn..I really hate it.

I don't know why am I reading it as I know the Statutes are provided during exam.

I'm like reading all the provisions in those Acts now, swallowing the words and clog up in my memory...god, it's so torturing!

Meaningless to read this piece of shit and I can't even remember the last sentence that I've just read!

Reading cases is better than this A LOT.

Hopefully more Acts will be provide, or else my paper is going to be BLANK!! 

MLS screwed me up before I screw up MLS....

Thanks to Puan Rooshida for guiding us in our first year and sorry to say that I don't like you and either the subject you're teaching at all..

Alhamdulilah...insyaallah.........

p/s: Sorry if this post is a bit mean but I just can't help it  ><

In Love or In Lust?

Here is a question. Are you in love or in lust? I can’t tell that this question is simple or tough, the answers may be varies. What feels like love to one person may be nothing more than attraction to another. Some people fall in and out of love quickly and often while others are never really in love as much as they are in lust. Some people love because they want to have sex, some believe that true love exists and some love for fun. What about you?

Lust is mainly sexual in nature – the attraction is superficial based on instant chemistry rather than genuine caring. One of the most confusing quasi-love is lust. It is a very powerful, very intense feeling of physical attraction toward another person. Usually we lust after people they don’t know well, people they feel comfortable fantasizing about. It is very common for people to confuse lust or love. But what is it about lust and love that make them so easy to mix up? If lust is all about sex, how can a relationship without sex be about lust?

Unlike lust, love is about much more than physical attraction. Lust is clearly not love. Love is based on more than just physical attraction. Sure, attraction is a factor, but love goes deeper than that. Love is based on caring, friendship, commitment and trust. When you are in love as if you have your best most trusted friend at your side AND you feel physically attracted to them. It is the best of both worlds! Love is a shared feeling between two people who have a vested interest in one another happiness. Love is NOT about jealousy. It is NOT about conflict or testing. Love is a positive feeling. If it is tainted by mistrust, jealousy, insecurity or spitefulness, it is not really love but a pale copy.

Love is the total surrender of your heart to another person with the security of knowing they will treat it better than you will. Love should feel good. It makes you want to be a better person, not leads you to do something self destructive. It is not demanding of your spirit but lifts it and make it glow. Love is a good thing. (Wah, can’t believe that I just typed it!) Anything less is lust, deep friendship or attraction. So, what's in your mind? Is it ADIDAS or If' I Ain't Got You? 

There is no easy way to find the truth behind your feelings. But there are some things you should know when in love or when you’re in a relationship:

The affection makes you feel special and good about yourself.

If/when you feel jealous it is always fleeting; you trust your partner not to betray or hurt your relationship.

Nothing makes you feel as serene as when you are with him/her.

Nothing is more important than you both being able to express your true feelings (even sometimes they cause conflict).

Your partner never asks you to choose between him/her and your loyalties to your family and friends. If you do choose him/her over them you always have a good reason and it is always YOUR decision, and your decision alone.

Neither you or your partner feel the need to test each other’s loyalties or feelings.

You are more yourself when with your partner than you are with anybody else.

If sex is part of your relationship it is by mutual desire and agreement without the slightest hint of commitment testing or persuasion.

If you really love someone, have faith in it. Faith and trust are require to remain the strong chain of your relationship. It would be easily broken without them. To me, there is no rush to find out who is my true love. I believe that when it comes to the right time, he’ll show up. There is definitely someone out there for me. But in case he doesn’t show up, guess I’ll have to marry my best friend (according to a quiz I took on facebook xD). LOL!!

Oh,  to those who've lost in love and think that the world is unfair (or anything makes you feel so), appreciate this fact. If everyone were to be equal, you’d lose the motivation to live. It’ll be plain boring. Live and learn!! The world is only unfair to those who does nothing to improve! (I was told by someone on this) =)

MJ ft. Various Artists-What More Can I Give

Michael Jackson has completed work on his benefit single What More Can I Give which will feature a huge list of talent, albeit a list that would have been larger had many of the acts not dropped out.

Included in the list are:

Ricky Martin
Santana
Mariah Carey
Celine Dion
Tom Petty
Destiny’s Child’s Beyonce Knowles
The Backstreet Boys’ Nick Carter
Aaron Carter
Mya
Luis Miguel
Ziggy Marley
Gloria Estefan
Boyz II Men’s Shawn Stockman
Skakira 
+others

Jackson says “I have no other agenda other than to just see some of these families smile again.” Michael described the work saying, “A song is a mantra, something you repeat over and over. And we need peace, we need giving, we need love, we need unity. I want the whole world to sing this song.”

Lyrics: 

How many people will have to die before we will take a stand

How many children will have to cry, before we do all we can

If sending your love is all you can give

To help one live, mmm

How many times can we turn our heads

And pretend we cannot see

Healing the wounds of our broken earth

We are one global family

Just sending your prayers

Is something you feel

Helping one heal

What have I got that I can give

(What have I got that I can give, tell me)

What have I got that I can give, yeah, oh

To love and to teach you

To hold and to need you

What more can I give (what more can I give, yeah)

brother to brother, lay down our fears and reach out and make a pact

Show him the love that is in our hearts, let us bring salvation back

Just sending your love has the power to heal

So let's all give

What have I got that I can give

(It's not a lot to give, just a little bit)

What have I got that I can give

(Everyone should be a part of it)

To love and to teach you

To hold and to need you

What more can I give

Say the words, I'll lay 'em down for you

Just call my name, I am your friend

See then why do they keep teaching us

Such hate and cruelty

We should give over and over again

What have I got that I can give

(We should give over and over again)

What have I got that I can give

(Oh my God, oh my God)

See, to love and to teach you

To hold and to need you

What more can I give

What have I got that I can give (aah)

What have I got that I can give 

(Give to you, give to you)

See, to love and to teach you

To hold and to need you

What more can I give (Oooh)

Repeat 

What have I got that I can give

(Give to you, we're gonna give to you)

What have I got that I can give

To hold and conceal you

To love and to heal you

What more can I give

What have I got that I can give

(What have I got)

(Send them your prayers)

What have I got that I can give

(Show the world how much you really care)

(To love you)

To love and to teach you

(To hold you, to need you)To hold and to need you 

What more can I give

What have I got that I can give...

*Live*

Okay, I stalked on people's blog, I admit! 

And now I'm agreed that curiosity kills!! lol..

I've just read a post of an unknown girl throught someone's blog..

Another super sad true story after 1 Litre of Tears, but different thing is, it's not from a movie. It's real life. I couldn't control my feelings.

It's true I have a sensitive heart. But I don't believe that I've even dropped tears when I'm reading the notes that the girl's bf wrote for her before he's gone to heaven. (I'm sure that's the place he's heading for he love his gf so much!)

I could't bear to continue to read it cause it's really touching and sad, it's way too much.....

I looked away for a few seconds and wiped off my tears and continue to read it..(swt)

It's really a sad case and made me wonder what on earth am I doing now?

Having lots of fun while people suffering in lost of life and love.

I really don't know what is the right thing to do, sitting down to see people suffer in life and there's nothing we can do to stop it?

I clamed down and a thought came to my mind.

Different people has different life and fate, what we can do is appreciate all the things around us and treasure all the moments that we share each day. Be good to each toher.

Smile, when you woke up every morning and when you are still breathing.

As long as you live, there is a chance.. a chance to laugh, a chance to say 'hi!' to your friends, a chance to love and to be loved, a chance to study and fail in exams, a chance to see how wonderful and cruel the world is...

If there isn't a chance at all, it's *the end*

So, right now..appreciate, be grateful that you live and be thankful for everything. 

p/s: Thanks god that I'm able to study in university and sit for finals now. But what the crap am I doing here?! I was supposed to be studying!! LOL

The Easiest Thing and the Hardest Thing in the World

Love. It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. There is no proper definition of love. Love is a matter of affection. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.  

It is a mystery why we fall in love and how it happens. Love sneaks in and leaves when we least expect it. It is a mystery why some love grows and why some love fails.You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.

Sometimes, you hope at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself. All our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

You don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it  comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

Some people, having been so long without love, understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. 

We need to understand and must always remember that no body is perfect. If you keep you heart open, surely love will blossom again. Be glad that it lives for a moment in your live.  

Adapted from: Letters to a son

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. - William Shakespeare

Michael Bubble - Everything

A magical song which turns me into good mood everytime i listen to it =)

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.

You're the line in the sand when I go too far.

You're the swimming pool, on an August day.

And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.

Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.

Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.

Cause you can see it when I look at you.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,

And you light me up, when you ring my bell.

You're a mystery, you're from outer space,

You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.

Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,

And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, You make me sing

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, You make me sing.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're every song, and I sing along.

'Cause you're my everything.

Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

KISS - Because I'm a Girl

prepare some tissues before you watch this~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhlhsB0VkkA&feature=PlayList&p=F3486BA76D92EAA7&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=1

Suddenly (exam version)

Suddenly I, am in front of my blog

Everything, I'm feeling

Worry but lazy at the same time

And everyday I just try to read

I want to scream it out loud

Mom I don't wanna exam

Suddenly I'm not facebook-ing

Suddenly everything is so bored

Suddenly I feel so sleepy

In the blink of an eye

My day begin to rain

Suddenly time, is so confusing

Hope it to stop ticking

I'm just trying to fit in

Now here I am

Stuck at the same chapter

My heart's groaning in pain

In this suffering crazy world

Suddenly I'm totaly messed up

Suddenly everything seems hard

Suddenly I feel so dead

In the blink of an eye

Suddenly I have big trouble

Suddenly it's already exam week

Suddenly I'm speechless

In a blink of an eye it's happening now

As I'm entering the exam hall

I want to say 'God bless me, please!'

What's inside 

I'm gonna be 'positive', gonna fight it, 

'I'm too young to die'

This is my life.

Suddenly I'm awaken

Suddenly there's no time to lose

Suddenly I believe again

In the blink of an eye

I'm going to make it!

Modified Ashley Tisdale : Suddenly

Notes for my BFF =)

today's weather is a holy crap! darn it, y is it so hot?! really have a sudden impulse to bare naked in my room! lolx... though i did not do so..im not here to do anyting scandalous...but to write sth for my important friends =)

These friends are those who i first met when entering UKM, from strangers but because of the luck which brought us together, we have bcom best friends of each other now...

i spend most of my uni time wif them cause most of them are my coursemates, wahaha....(i know it's a lame reason but it's true =) ) and such a coincidence that we stay in the same college..and our blocks are just opposite one another..

since the first semester of my uni life, we go to class together, have our meals together, join college activities together, gossips together, do silly things, scream and overexcited at times, share our dirty/shamful secrets together....etc.

there are so many memorable moments we've shared together although it was just almost a year which consist of 365days..

The foremost reason i'm writing this is because recently there are few incidents happened and made them hurt..

i feel sad when hearing it from them even though it's not happening on me, but i would never want it to happen to my friends especially those who are close to me..

it's more to sentiments problem actually, damn those bastards who made them hurt and tears dropped on faces at nights..!!

what i want to say here is, no matter what happen, there's still a friend here who is willing to listen to your problem, willing to share your ups and downs, who you can rely on..

anyone who hurts you girls, don't worry, I'll tear them into pieces and feed the monkey in UKM!! bwahahhaa....

it's because of you all are there when i need you, it's because i really appreciate all the moments we've spent together and hope there are more.. it's because of Sze Pei somtimes is so annoying like our mom, it's because of Carol looks like a kiddo and always overacted though she's the eldest among us, it's because of Shereen is 173cm, it's because of Clara always obey to her bf no matter what which is impossible for me who rebels, to make it!.....etc. for so many reasons, i'm here to say that i'll be there if you need me..(though sometimes i might not be the one, wahahaha!!)

and i shall continue my journey of life with you girls with no regrets!..

p/s: just call out my name, i'll be there =)

hand in hand, we'll always be together..

the irreplacble 5 of us =)