I am so not in the mood to study now, something is bothering me.
Two days ago, I went out with a bunch of new friends, and a few old friends. Not so old though, the closest friend of mine was the only girl. We planned to go out together, to give that guy a chance to go out with my friend since he is fond of her. =)
In such a coincidence, the guys were about to celebrate their friend's birthday and they said we could tagged along. So, we went out together. We had Chinese food for dinner at Mushroom restaurant which located somewhere around Sunway. The meal was nice, we ordered 10 plus dishes and need not to pay a cent. The bill goes to the birthday guy. Hehe. After that, the people decided to go to Barcelona to celebrate. My friend refused to go at first, but because of we don't want to give any more trouble to the driver and not to tear down the fun, we went along with them.
It was the first time I went there without any make-ups or nice dress, just a simple white T, skinny jeans and my Converse sneakers. When we were searching for parking space, my friend told me that she felt like she was going to lose her virginity. It realy funny. Because since her very last time to club, which was actually cheated by her friend, this was the first time that she's going to step into the club. Everything has its first time, it depends on whether have you taken your very first step. If there is a first time, for sure there'll be a second time.
It was a Saturday, it's my first time seeing such a huge crowd in Barcel. I wasn't close with the other guys actually, I only tagged with 3 other friends more oftenly. Especially when the other 2 were drunken so seriously, they can't even helped to look after each other! I was quite worried about my friend's safety until I'm confirmed that her consciousness was more than drunk. It only left half an hour before the party's over, so my another friend dragged me to the dance floor. Just me and him, and the crowd. Although he wasn't a good dancer, but I had lots of fun. I laughed so loudly when seeing him and seeing his friends dancing at the club. This was the first time that I laughed the most and kept smiling when dancing. I don't feel any sorrows, I've forgotten it.
Since that day, my mind kept thinking of that moment and the feeling. It was a natural feeling that came from the heart, it was so true. Sometimes I feel like happy is a property of mine too. =) At the same time, I'm starting to worry. I'm scared that the same thing is going to happen to me again - fall for a non-available guy. I wonder, why do I always met with guys who are not available? Why are single guys not my type? It might sound offensive but I'm frus when think about this.
Love is a choice. It matters whether do we give ourselves a chance to fall in love or we do not? But some says love is beyond control, it comes when you're less aware of it. But to me, love can't be according to plan. You can not plan not to fall in love with a guy or to fall in love with him. It happens when the moment comes. It's in your control whether you let yourself to keep in connection with that particular person. I'm afraid that I make the same mistake as before. But when came to think of it clearly, is that wrong? Falling with someone who is not available. Does that mean he is not the right guy? If it is a yes, I doubt the answer. It's nothing wrong to fall in love, it doesn't mean that he is the wrong guy. Maybe the so called 'mr right' is attached by now. Oops... Or maybe I'm wrong. Well, there's always an arguement when talk about this. I think I should just see how it goes and stop thinking nonsense. Finals coming...... ><
Two days ago, I went out with a bunch of new friends, and a few old friends. Not so old though, the closest friend of mine was the only girl. We planned to go out together, to give that guy a chance to go out with my friend since he is fond of her. =)
In such a coincidence, the guys were about to celebrate their friend's birthday and they said we could tagged along. So, we went out together. We had Chinese food for dinner at Mushroom restaurant which located somewhere around Sunway. The meal was nice, we ordered 10 plus dishes and need not to pay a cent. The bill goes to the birthday guy. Hehe. After that, the people decided to go to Barcelona to celebrate. My friend refused to go at first, but because of we don't want to give any more trouble to the driver and not to tear down the fun, we went along with them.
It was the first time I went there without any make-ups or nice dress, just a simple white T, skinny jeans and my Converse sneakers. When we were searching for parking space, my friend told me that she felt like she was going to lose her virginity. It realy funny. Because since her very last time to club, which was actually cheated by her friend, this was the first time that she's going to step into the club. Everything has its first time, it depends on whether have you taken your very first step. If there is a first time, for sure there'll be a second time.
It was a Saturday, it's my first time seeing such a huge crowd in Barcel. I wasn't close with the other guys actually, I only tagged with 3 other friends more oftenly. Especially when the other 2 were drunken so seriously, they can't even helped to look after each other! I was quite worried about my friend's safety until I'm confirmed that her consciousness was more than drunk. It only left half an hour before the party's over, so my another friend dragged me to the dance floor. Just me and him, and the crowd. Although he wasn't a good dancer, but I had lots of fun. I laughed so loudly when seeing him and seeing his friends dancing at the club. This was the first time that I laughed the most and kept smiling when dancing. I don't feel any sorrows, I've forgotten it.
Since that day, my mind kept thinking of that moment and the feeling. It was a natural feeling that came from the heart, it was so true. Sometimes I feel like happy is a property of mine too. =) At the same time, I'm starting to worry. I'm scared that the same thing is going to happen to me again - fall for a non-available guy. I wonder, why do I always met with guys who are not available? Why are single guys not my type? It might sound offensive but I'm frus when think about this.
Love is a choice. It matters whether do we give ourselves a chance to fall in love or we do not? But some says love is beyond control, it comes when you're less aware of it. But to me, love can't be according to plan. You can not plan not to fall in love with a guy or to fall in love with him. It happens when the moment comes. It's in your control whether you let yourself to keep in connection with that particular person. I'm afraid that I make the same mistake as before. But when came to think of it clearly, is that wrong? Falling with someone who is not available. Does that mean he is not the right guy? If it is a yes, I doubt the answer. It's nothing wrong to fall in love, it doesn't mean that he is the wrong guy. Maybe the so called 'mr right' is attached by now. Oops... Or maybe I'm wrong. Well, there's always an arguement when talk about this. I think I should just see how it goes and stop thinking nonsense. Finals coming...... ><
4 comments:
waaa...who's ur new crush?hopefully its someone with good personality XD
:)
its been quite a while..
what does ur heart say? and if fate and chance are on ur side, everything will fall just nicely into place...thats what i think anyway...u cant escape from cupid's arrow :)
anyway, best of luck for the finals!!
yaya, really long time din hear tat u having feeling towards someone d....
if he is ur mr. right, surely u both will together finally...(haha,just like me lo)
but mayb is just special feeling in drunk situation...mayb u feel nothing after awhile... anyway, just 顺其自然
good luck for ur final la...so do me actually... meet ya if got chance this coming sem break^^
Toon: no crush la... xP
vanguard: thx for reading my post till now. Haha.. it's been a while since ur last comment. i'll tink of it, thx ^^
Shimin: I'm not sure whether i hav feeling onot, maybe a lil. But it's not going to hav a result anyway, it's a hopeless one, din tink to get along with dat guy oso. Haha..
u too, gud luck for ur final =)
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