Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
I was having lunch with my friends as usual at the place that we all love to go when this song was played after our conversation.
I was eating quietly when his face and all the issues were floating in my mind. I then heard my friend suddenly called my name - I had an instinct that she is going to talk about something.
My instinct was quite accurate. My friend advised me that I shouldn't put too much hope on him because from what she had experienced, the one who will get hurt in the end, is me. I think what she said is quite true.
From the first day I knew that he is attached to someone else, I knew that I shouldn't have any fantasy dream. Since my past had taught me some lessons, until today, I am still trying hard to control myself not to go across the barrier. It is hard to do so because sometimes, honestly, I still have hope but I don't allow myself to have it. Consequently, I became moody and emotional at times.
What I'd suffered is not a big issue, it's just a stage in life that I have to go through. I still have to go on my life no matter how moodless I am, to realize the fact that it will be harder if I lose a friend like him, or should I say it a special friend.
He is a friend to whom I can talk on anything, the first person who came to my mind so frequently. It is not easy to find someone like him, a friend who cares and done a lot for me and don't mind for doing all that. We have many things that we are in common with, especially clubs and songs.. There are actually a few songs that make me think of him and have a deep feeling when I listen to them and I think I'm going to have to go through this for the rest of life! To him, I might mean the same too because we shared almost everything, naked talks. And yet, we are just friends. I would not say normal friends because we can't be normal friends, he is a special one to me.
People differs from one another. Sometimes I really hope that he is the one, the Mr. Right guy, because it is hard or almost impossible to find a person same like him who can connect with me so well. He could really be an understanding partner which is what I always wanted. But I can't forget that I'm the devil, things might get different even though if I can have him someday, I cannot jeopardize his happiness.
I know where I belong and where I don't. I am in my human world and he lives in heaven. There's a barrier that we shouldn't cross to get to each other for we'll have to bear the consequences for violating the regulation. I'm happy now and should be satisfied that I have someone as good as him. I will always appreciate this.
p/s: Thanks for consoling and accompanying me when I almost met with a car accident that day. Although it recalled me on my previous accident experience which made me feel so bad and I was really down, but your advise was really useful. And... thanks for the cornetto. :)
I was eating quietly when his face and all the issues were floating in my mind. I then heard my friend suddenly called my name - I had an instinct that she is going to talk about something.
My instinct was quite accurate. My friend advised me that I shouldn't put too much hope on him because from what she had experienced, the one who will get hurt in the end, is me. I think what she said is quite true.
From the first day I knew that he is attached to someone else, I knew that I shouldn't have any fantasy dream. Since my past had taught me some lessons, until today, I am still trying hard to control myself not to go across the barrier. It is hard to do so because sometimes, honestly, I still have hope but I don't allow myself to have it. Consequently, I became moody and emotional at times.
What I'd suffered is not a big issue, it's just a stage in life that I have to go through. I still have to go on my life no matter how moodless I am, to realize the fact that it will be harder if I lose a friend like him, or should I say it a special friend.
He is a friend to whom I can talk on anything, the first person who came to my mind so frequently. It is not easy to find someone like him, a friend who cares and done a lot for me and don't mind for doing all that. We have many things that we are in common with, especially clubs and songs.. There are actually a few songs that make me think of him and have a deep feeling when I listen to them and I think I'm going to have to go through this for the rest of life! To him, I might mean the same too because we shared almost everything, naked talks. And yet, we are just friends. I would not say normal friends because we can't be normal friends, he is a special one to me.
People differs from one another. Sometimes I really hope that he is the one, the Mr. Right guy, because it is hard or almost impossible to find a person same like him who can connect with me so well. He could really be an understanding partner which is what I always wanted. But I can't forget that I'm the devil, things might get different even though if I can have him someday, I cannot jeopardize his happiness.
I know where I belong and where I don't. I am in my human world and he lives in heaven. There's a barrier that we shouldn't cross to get to each other for we'll have to bear the consequences for violating the regulation. I'm happy now and should be satisfied that I have someone as good as him. I will always appreciate this.
p/s: Thanks for consoling and accompanying me when I almost met with a car accident that day. Although it recalled me on my previous accident experience which made me feel so bad and I was really down, but your advise was really useful. And... thanks for the cornetto. :)
4 comments:
wat accident?
that day when came back to UKM almost crash with a bike lo, but luckily it din happen. haiz..
So know that u were gonna blog about it that time when u late for class. Someday, sometime, u will know what to do. Think about it, ur life wouldn't be so interesting if all this didn't happen.
Haha.. suddenly got the feel to blog. I wasn't late for class, the lec was late than me. lol!!
yup, this is life.. quite enjoy the challenge actually, hahahha...
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