Sorry for neglecting my blog in these few weeks, I'd no time and mood to write as I'd been playing hard, studying hard and working hard! Haha.. Looking back, I seriously think that my January was quite happening and it scares me!...
The very first thing, I went clubbing for FIVE times on that month itself! Not almost but in fact every week I went there without missing once! I think I'm crazy..LOL~ I wasn't planning anything but it's all just happened this way. Five times with different group of people but partially of them were the same. It's not that I'm addicted to club, but I was so troubled by love that I just grab any chance to give myself a break! Love could really killed someone.
All this while I'd been keeping those words from him until when he told me how he felt to me. I'm not Iron-woman who has a strong heart, I can't insist anymore! Finally the last time at Zouk aka farewell party for our Korean friends, despite having fun, I broke down and cried as hard as I could, releasing the pain and uncomfortableness in my heart which I'd been suffering for the whole week! I hugged my friend so tightly and tears began to drop on my face, I really cried like a baby and I'd forgotten the last time when I cried like that! After that, I turned to him and expressed everything, I confessed! It was the first time I felt so hard to tell someone that I like him. I was afraid to take the first step. But now I'm glad that I'd said out those words, it was really torturing when keeping them in my heart! And I won't regret for what I've said today.
The second thing was, I'd attended 2 concerts for FREE! One is during New Year Count Down at 1Utama while another is at Mont Kiara when Boys Like Girls came to Malaysia and Nokia were doing their promotion of Nokia X6!!!! Woot~ We were really excited on that day and we managed to book the first row!! Yeah~ The opening was so awesome, DJ Goldfish was really great!! xD Too bad that I didn't get to squeeze in when my friends were taking photo wif Utt, he is damn cool and handsome! Sob T.T
Third, I think that this time I'm not so committed in NTLP 13. As one of the director, I didn't really carry out my responsibility and I'm ashamed of what I had not done. I was just so busy on studies, dance practicing, partying and lately I'd also joined ALSA committee board for the National Conference which will also be held on March and just a few days before NTLP13. I swear that I didn't skip the meeting for nothing, in fact it always clash with my other activities and I'm sick of it! I really feel bad when thought of this and sometimes I lost my mood. Anyway, I'm finding a best solution now. Either I quit my position as a director and demote myself to the dancer's supervisor or continue it....I need an answer for this.
Forth, the earliest time I go to bed is after 2a.m. How long can I live if continue this kind of life style? But I still stick the phrase - "work hard, play hard" for we only can live life once.
If you look at my calendar, basically my February and March activities are almost equally full.... Somehowm I agreed to my friend - this semester is not only tired or exhausted, but fatigue! Things that need to be done seems endless..... Help?
The very first thing, I went clubbing for FIVE times on that month itself! Not almost but in fact every week I went there without missing once! I think I'm crazy..LOL~ I wasn't planning anything but it's all just happened this way. Five times with different group of people but partially of them were the same. It's not that I'm addicted to club, but I was so troubled by love that I just grab any chance to give myself a break! Love could really killed someone.
All this while I'd been keeping those words from him until when he told me how he felt to me. I'm not Iron-woman who has a strong heart, I can't insist anymore! Finally the last time at Zouk aka farewell party for our Korean friends, despite having fun, I broke down and cried as hard as I could, releasing the pain and uncomfortableness in my heart which I'd been suffering for the whole week! I hugged my friend so tightly and tears began to drop on my face, I really cried like a baby and I'd forgotten the last time when I cried like that! After that, I turned to him and expressed everything, I confessed! It was the first time I felt so hard to tell someone that I like him. I was afraid to take the first step. But now I'm glad that I'd said out those words, it was really torturing when keeping them in my heart! And I won't regret for what I've said today.
The second thing was, I'd attended 2 concerts for FREE! One is during New Year Count Down at 1Utama while another is at Mont Kiara when Boys Like Girls came to Malaysia and Nokia were doing their promotion of Nokia X6!!!! Woot~ We were really excited on that day and we managed to book the first row!! Yeah~ The opening was so awesome, DJ Goldfish was really great!! xD Too bad that I didn't get to squeeze in when my friends were taking photo wif Utt, he is damn cool and handsome! Sob T.T
Third, I think that this time I'm not so committed in NTLP 13. As one of the director, I didn't really carry out my responsibility and I'm ashamed of what I had not done. I was just so busy on studies, dance practicing, partying and lately I'd also joined ALSA committee board for the National Conference which will also be held on March and just a few days before NTLP13. I swear that I didn't skip the meeting for nothing, in fact it always clash with my other activities and I'm sick of it! I really feel bad when thought of this and sometimes I lost my mood. Anyway, I'm finding a best solution now. Either I quit my position as a director and demote myself to the dancer's supervisor or continue it....I need an answer for this.
Forth, the earliest time I go to bed is after 2a.m. How long can I live if continue this kind of life style? But I still stick the phrase - "work hard, play hard" for we only can live life once.
If you look at my calendar, basically my February and March activities are almost equally full.... Somehowm I agreed to my friend - this semester is not only tired or exhausted, but fatigue! Things that need to be done seems endless..... Help?
2 comments:
after grad is hard for u to play like this, im a great example..
but play hard also have to take take la..
yea, i know that... haha.
but still, everyone has to go through that stage, just it's not my time now. hehe...
take take?
Hm, have to limit myself also lo actually...
btw, I just came back from gathering at Klang, haha!
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