The story goes.. During dinner time, a woman confessed to a man who has already married, despite persuading him to accept her, the man rejected her by a reason. The man started to talk about his wife, what kind of people he was before he met her. She was the one who made him only obeyed to her and inspired him. He changed because of her, from a man with no dreams to a successful business man today. He also said that how thoughtful his wife was when he only capable to buy her a ring a year after they married. He loved her from the bottom of his heart and gave her the ultimate respect. Finally the woman surrendered because she too thought that his wife was a very great person and she was totally defeated by her. Before leaving, the woman rejected the man who offered to send her back and reminded him not to let his wife waited for too long. The man smiled and when home. Back home, he entered his room and spoke, "It's the fourth this time, why did you change me into such a good man but left me alone in this world? What if I fall for someone else, will that satisfies you?...", looking at his wife who had beautiful smiles, framed in the picture.
I was touched when I read until the last part. The man insisted to keep his heart for his wife, it's difficult to find someone like this now. Every human has only one heart and it cannot split into half and share by two or more persons. Questions came to my mind when I thought of my own situations. I fell for a guy who is in a long distance relationship which has already long for years, it's not a short period. Even if one day I'm lucky to can have him, so what? I can never be the girl who has accompanied him for since years ago, it's incomparable and irreplaceable. It's really hurting when I realized this fact. I know that different people have different position in our hearts, so do I. Maybe when I'm in love, I hope there is nothing more important in his heart but me, if I'm with him. I can imagine the eternal wound which will never cure, even if it's cure by time, there's still a scar on it which will never fade. So this time, I chose to be silence. Let it comes when no one knows until it slips away quietly. It's not like me to keep secret in this matter because I'm always so obvious without speaking a word! This time, I rather not to hurt anyone but myself. If silence can solve it, why not? It's better not to start a thing that we knew it will not have a result eventually. My decision, I hope I can stick to it until the last day. I just need a little faith.
p/s: Really hope that someone can appear and rescue me from this sorrowfulness.
