Bags Freak!

GOSH!! They are driving me crazy... I wanna have them all!!ALL~~ lolx.

My first target!! The chocolate leather bag. If there's no any accident, I'm going to have it cause Nan2 said wanna pay for it as my b'day present...he's so damn good! lol...THANKS A LOT!

It can be carry in 2 ways.. nice right? gosh, i love the sling style...look so nice....cost RM38 ONLY..

Second target! This one is really COOL....It can be carried in four ways! Plan to use it for classes cause I think it is big enough to keep my laptop..haha......The price for this is RM33....cheap right?lol..

I love this one..But it is out of my plan actually...can be categorized in 'Luxury' d...cost RM43, more expensive than both on the above though the size is smaller...It has 3 designs, I like the design of UK the most!! It's so dazzling~~ hehe..

Another 2 designs are shown at the right column of this photo..France and US..

Any sponsorship for this???haha......

MiSeraBLe?

Seems like it has bcom my habit to blog everytime b4 i go to bed..
i duno whether dis is a gud ting onot..cuz i'l blog when sth happens to me..sth may be gud or bad..
i blog so frequent these days, out of so many posts, only one or two r about happy events..
sigh..

read a fren's blog juz now..
saw de word 'Miserable'..hope it's not de best word to describe my feeling right now ><
miserable? might not seen it from my face, cuz i've tried to smile everyday...but sometimes it really goes dis way in my heart..lol..

de most tragic thing dat happens on me recently is.....
de silence-ness of my fon...
i rarely receive any msg or call from others...n i dunno who n wad to send..
wondered if they're busy or anyting..
de only msgs i received everyday r from Hotlink..wtf!
receiving other's msg shows dat someone stil rmb u..n i'd like to b remembered..
to people out there, if u're reading dis, mind to do me a favor?
juz pick up ur fon, go to de msg box n forward a msg to me would u?
highly appreciate ur co-operation...
mind sounds "funny" here but it matters somehow..
trust me, when ur fon dint ring for days, u'll start wondering whether is it spoilt but in fact, it's not!...lol..

"Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit."
yup, im now de 'only tree' among 4 of us (my gang)..again lol..

"A relationship is like a rose,

How long it lasts, no one knows;

Love can erase an awful past,

Love can be yours, you'll see at last;

To feel that love, it makes you sigh,

To have it leave, you'd rather die;

You hope you've found that special rose,

'Cause you love and care for the one you chose."

hope dat my rose is de one n only special thing in dis world...n i shall find it someday..

Recharge de 'Batteries

so so so tired 2day............
i juz slpt for 3 hours last nite n din get any chance to rest for de whole day...
so i gav myself a 'nite-off' by not attending de dance practice...
unbelievable huh...im always present unless i really cant..
but 2day im really tired of everything..
nid to take a gud rest n recharge myself b4 moving on...
it's going to b a long way to final...so many tings must be done!
oh man...~
so for now, off de light n sleep tight..
2mr wil b a better day...
*goodnight*

read this

"FOCUS,

not on the rudeness of others,

not on what they've done or left undone,

but on what you have or have not done yourself."

what happened on Sunday

When i woke up yesterday..

de room is stil dark...no sunshine in de room..

i turned over n saw clara (my roommate) stil laying on her bed...

tot it's stil morning...

but when i look at de clock in my fon, it's already 2.35pm!!

swt!

de room is dark >>> cuz it's going to rain!

clara stil laying on her bed >>> she's having her nap already!

gosh..

though it's sunday but i don hav a plan for de day....

i was motivated to study somehow...

stayed in my room n did de tutorial question for tuesday's contract, studied 1chapter of ILS cuz de test is coming up on dis thurs..but i stil dunno how to ans MLS tutorial..><

it rained de whole day...de thunders r so horrible...im so worried dat my laptop wil get burnt by it..haha!but luckily it didnt happen...hehe...

when dinner time, me n clara went to cafe to have or dinner as usual..

b4 dat, we drop by Kedai Asas cuz we wanted to buy Butter Scotch bread..waited for a few days d, finally it showed up!lol....

when we're paying at de counter, there's a free gift for each purchasing of nescafe 3in1..

de cup is quite cute n de shop's owner noticed dat we're discussing it...

do u know wad happen next?

she gav each of us d cup, without wanting us to buy de nescafe...

she's so damn generous....lol..

1st time felt so hounoured to stay in Zaba...(cuz de fees r de most expensive among all colleges in UKM)..hahaha..

when we reached de cafe..sth grab my attention...

there was a flood in de middle part of de cafe as how u can see in dis pic...lol..

dis always happens when it rains heavily..

it should b covered by dry green grass actually...swt

i've ordered nasi paprik for my dinner...nthg special, juz a plate of rice wif chicken n de sauce which don taste gud dat day...zZz..

met Shi Qi too n she sat down to hav dinner wif us..

she's going to Redang for vacation on March...

it reminds me of de crystal clear sea water, de soft n comfortable beach, de beautiful corals n de ppl who were wif me during last year trip to Redang on May...

really miss Redang a lot...a lot a lot...n my frens too of course..(cheng zheng, yu zhen, gauh hwang, wei jun, poy cheng, qian yi n muan chen)

i would nvr forget it!

always hoping dat if i can go there again....wif da same gang....*sigh*

at nite, we celebrated Melody's 21st bday..

Supposingly it's "Happy Birthday", but when we sing de bday song n she blown de candles, it's "Happy Belated Birthday" cuz of de late arrival of de cake...haha..

Melody, de bday girl ^^

there was an 'NG' when we sang until "Happy Birthday to Melo"...de candle lights suddenly blown off by de fan cuz it's stil spinning, lol...u can c de funny face on Carol cuz she always overacted in situation like dis..lol!!

immediately we light on de candles again n let Melo makes her wish...she wish dat i'll get de square-shaped Phillips Mp3.....................craps!!dat's my wish actually...hahaha!

we did had a lot of fun n chit-chat til 1.30am...i like dis type of gathering, but it only happens once in a while cuz not everyday is our bday..hehe...

instead of giving present to de bday girl, each of us oso received 1 small gift from Melo...

it's a wooden bookmarked, DIY by her...

she actually carved our names on each bookmark...de flowers r made of Korean Plasticine..cute rite? n de quotes on it is "Friendship is one mind in two bodies", printed n coloured by her too..

love it a lot! thanks ya Melo..

i'll use it carefully to not spoilt it...hehe...

*hugs* ^^

I Hate This Part Right Here

it's 4 am now...
2hours ago, i was rolling on de bed wif my eyes opened...
i cant slp, suffering insomnia rite now...
shouldnt hv viewed my blog b4 i slp, when i saw de "unwanted" ting..
each word i read it's like carving on me...it hurts!

how to describe de feeling?
it's like ....
uhm..
u got small cottage..a simple 1, but vr comfy to stay inside..
u built it wif love n care..
one day, u set a fire n burnt it..
there's nthg left but black, poisoned ashes..
u ignore it as u nvr seen it, cuz u don wanna feel it...
u knew dat once u face it, tears is going to fall from ur face n ur heart feels pain like u're being stabbed a hundred times...
but it's stil there....u nvr know..
until it is gone wif de wind, how long it would take for dat...?

dat is how i felt..
smth i'd lost ...
nvr wanna face it n assumed dat it wont come back..
i wont wanna know whether it is stil there..
cuz i don hav de courage to even hav a glance at it..
don wanna hav dat kinda feel again...

i feel so bad n lonely as i cant slp..
wanted to call someone1 to talk but i dunno who to call..
talking about close fren...de 1 closest to heart..
i don tink if i hav any now...
cuz im not gud in keepin gud connection wif all of them..
n i don tend to share my problems wif ppl...
not dat im not willing to share but i juz don feel like talking on de unhappy tings..
it might seems like i got many frens..
but when it comes to personal problem, i really dunno who i can rely on..
how pathetic it is, ironically..
feels like no one is by my side..
im all alone, struggling wif myself..
tryin to b stronger..
sometimes i really envious of those who's fren would stood up for them when they got into sth at de 1st place.....

de only ting i hope now is dat 'mr sweetheart' pls don leave ur msg at my blog again..
i felt annoyed n uncomfortable whn i c it...
sry for dis but for our own gud, pls dont..
be gone as how u wish..

***

time to slp..startin to feel dizzy here..
gonna listen 'beat it' again b4 i off..old version by M.J, new version by Fall Out Boys..
im so into dis song...it boils my spirit!haha...
gudnite everyone..

A Gloomy Day

i woke up at 12pm 2day...n had lunch on 3pm..
i was totally exhausted at de previous day.. i visited UM early in de morning to support our seniors in Jessup Moot compeition, back to UKM at around 7pm n had no time to rest cuz i gotta catch up de bus to attend dance practise at 8pm..
slpt at 2.30am last nite...
in consequence, i failed to attend Khidmat Masyarakat class at 8am, bet u know de reason y..haha..
n felt sry to my frens cuz din let them know dat im not attending...sob..
half an hour later i got up from bed, i went to PTSL to do some researches on de assignmens..dont tink i contribute much on it cuz most information has been provided..
later on, i climbed hundreds of staircases to Ibu Zain to find Dr. Loo (he'll surely feel proud for me to name him like dis but too bad he wont see dis, haha!)..
paid Rm3 for de service, swt..
but it's great to know dat my blood pressure, BMI, quantity of glucose r so far in normal range..hehe.
when i back to my college, i had to practise dance for 28feb performance..
luckily it's juz an easy 1..done in an hour..haha!
when back to room, i had to do de laundry...a pile of dirty clothes dat nid to wash...
sigh..
n guess wad.. it's raining cats n dogs now..
de thunders r deafening! ><

somehow..de tense situation slowly fading away when MLTR - Nothing To Loose flow into my ears....
de music is so sweet when it's playing through my Edifier speaker..n de song is meaningful n soft, it makes me feel peace n relaxing..
im calm now..

actually de whole ting i wrote on de above wasnt a problem..
wad made me upset is dat i was scolded by someone complaining bout my bitchy attitude towards him..
uhm...maybe it's true cuz im acting so cold like ice to him..i juz cant help it..
cant pretend nthg happens..hope to keep some distance away from him, mayb dat's y..
but sometimes stil wishing for his care...
sort of like "i want you but i dont need you"...sounds like im ridiculous huh.. perhaps im a "dangerous" one...swt..
anyway..but it doesnt matter now,cuz our final frenship has been screwed up by a few text msgs...
mayb dat's a better ending after all..
"im fine without you.." it keeps appearing in my mind..
so wad's de point if de frenship is a trouble to us?
frenship can be as strong as steel, but at times, it is as fragile as glass..when there is hatred..
it can b destroyed by a few words, attitudes or promises..in a min, an hour or a day..
he used to advice me not to hav hard feelings to ppl, im tryin my best to do it now..
it's my fault...mayb i took him for granted..
"im only human, sometims i make mistakes"....dis is not a strong defence statement...
[if u forgive me for leaving u like dis, i shall forgive u on those harsh words u said to me too n ending up dis frenship...]
it's hurt when he say so..
but i gotta move on, de time wont stop for me..
i stil haven found my 'somebody', haven get to travel around de world, not yet graduate wif my law degree, not yet fulfil de responsible to my family..n there's a lot of dances dat i nid to learn!... not gonna giv up life juz like dis..
dis remind me of tsp trademark--"don wanna die as a virgin" haha!..

guess all i nid to do now is "juz hav a little faith" in life..
"do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

a little vexation

Life in uni isnt easy...
lots of assignments, classes, meetings, and also activities...
some ppl are very active..
but to some who dont, they juz like to stay at room to study or watch movies..
i love joining activities, especially when it comes to sth im interested in..
i cant bear to stay in my room de whole day for nth..juz gotta move..u know..
but there're too many activities in UKM, they keep flowing non-stop..even during holidays..
n since im in de performance group of "Yi Hua", if there is any event held in my college, mostly r 'Yes! man' to us..
i'd performed de pap dance for 3 times in diff event n de same for another song in last sem..n 2 times for de korean dance..
dis sem is shorter than sem 1 but yet, there r more acitivties..so frequent dat i can harly find a time to rest!
dis is one of de recent case..there's going to b a show on 28 feb organized by de indians n we're asked to perform again..i was informed by our KP few hours ago..

disike to know tings in de last min n yet we cant reject it, it is sort of an obligation to us now..mayb juz for now..hehe..

we cant prevent it to happen cuz i tink get tings known at de last min has bcom a tradition in UKM..swt.

if we use de pap dance,it's gonna de 4th time..
no way~
i'm getting bored of it! keep performing de same dance..
but we managed to find a solution now...
*phew*
sometimes i felt tired, but there're one or two dat im willing to sacrifice my time n spirit on it...
#DANCE#
if compare wif studies....it is incomparable at all...lolx!
de one coming soon in dis 26 March..
we'll make de best hit for it..
NTLP~ here we come! xD

craps..

god damn hot in my room..
it's like sitting in an oven~ Zzz...
2day i spent de whole nite in room n did all my homeworks, haha...
1st time so hardworking..
usually after class, i'll go practise dance until 10-11pm ++...
n by de time i back to room, im nthg but a dead fish..lol!
last nite is de earliest nite i slp since sem2 started i guess, i went to bed at 12.30am++..
usually i'll stay until 2-3am to finish my assignment or on9..
i dared wif Carol dat i can slp early, so muz keep de words..haha!~
hmm..wad else?
oh ya, i missed 2.30pm bus to Fac 2day..
cuz i overslpt, haha..
woke up at 2.45pm n watched de bus drove off in front of me at 2.50pm..
swt!
luckily got a senior passby n picked me up, or else i'll late for de arabic quiz....><
well, dat's all for now..
don hav much stories to tell n not being affected by emotion recently...
im happy as a bird..haha~
k, gotta catch up for prison break now..
Michael Scofield is such a genius n vr handsome..bwahahaha....
"be the change you want to see in the world"

Delta Goodrem - Be Strong

*This song is dedicated to those who are in the darkness of life now....be strong ~

Are you swimming up streamin oceans of blue

Do you feel like your sinking?

Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?

Well I know what you're thinking

When you can't take it

You can make it

Sometime soon I know you'll see

We're taking each step one day at a time

You can't loose your spirit

Let live and let live forget and forgive

It's all how you see it

And just remember keep it together

Don't you know you're never alone

'cause when you're in your darkest hour

And all of the light just fades away

When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray

Well hang on and be strong

No you're not defeated And soon you'll be smiling once again

Then you won't have to feel it

Let it go with the wind

Time passes us by

And know that you're allowed to cry

test ...

juz finish my MLS test..
i skip de class dis morning n so "sui" cuz de lec had me caught red handed...
so as other 36 ppl..
but most of them managed to find a MC for her so they're forgiven..so fake...Zzz..
to 'us'...she make us stand in front of de lec hall for 15 mins...'mempersiasuikan' saja..fu*k!
but luckily i went to see her n giv my reasoning, or else i'll be doing de test at de lec's table juz like other 4 girls..damn...
n guess wad, it's an unofficial "open book" test to me..
well, it does make me feel relief cuz at least i can writing many tings on my paper instead of passup a blank one..
but my conscience is killing me...though it's not de 1st time..haha!
>>dis prove dat i stil hav a heart,n it's not black..hehe...
cuz cant really rmb wad i've studied de previous day..don hav de heart to study n memorising..*sigh*
hav dis eager feel to blog since last nite but due to de loudy wifi connection, i cant on9!...sob~~

gtg now...got my arabic class at 5pm..
haha..chaox!

Rihanna - Cry

I'm not the type to get my heart broken

I'm not the type to get upset and cry

Cause I never leave my heart open

Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me

Never got that whole in love thing

And someone can say they love me truly

But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round

And deep inside, my tears I'll drown

I'm losing grip, what's happening

I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different

Felt like I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife

When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition

And I've got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed

Cause it's hurting me to let it go

Maybe cause we spent so much time

And I know that it's no more

I shoulda never let you hold me baby

Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart

I didn't give to you on purpose

Can't figure out how you stole my heart

How did I get here with you, I'll never know

I never meant to let it get so personal

And after all I tried to do to stay away from loving you

I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know

And I won't let it show

You won't see me cry

a forwarded message

love-

we nid to tink about it, sing about it,

dream about it n loose slp worrying about it

when we dont know we hav it, we search for it

when we discover it, we dunno wad to do wif it

when we hav it, we fear losing it

it's de constant source of pleasure n pain

but we dunno much which it'll b

from 1 moment to de next, it's a short word,

easy to spell, difficult to define n impossible to live without.

juz a day..

So so tired today...spent de whole day shopping at Sungei Wang, Low Yat n Time Square wif 2 of my frens...

i could fall asleep at any time now, haha...

we depart at 11.30am++ from UKM station after my ko-k class...

de main purpose of going out 2day is to watch de hip-hop contest at de 6th floor of Sg. Wang actually....not celebrating any event....Zzz

as soon as we reach Time Square, we had our lunch at Nippon Tei to fill de hunger, haha....

we're surrounded by many couples, feel so odd but we still craps a lot..haha..

de competition started at 3.30pm but supposed it should b started at 3pm, it ended in 30mins time, swt...only 2 or 3 dance r quite nice...de rest r K.O...lolx!

i spent quite a lot at Low Yat 2day.. dis is de 1st time i went shopping there...

totally out of my plan, din intend to buy anyting at 1st.. my wallet is broken now *sigh*

i bought dis 4GB memory stick for my sony digi cam...couldnt make use of it without dis memory stick..

n dis too..Edifier M1335

cool huh?hehe....

btw, i saw dis at S&J,a tissue paper box holder.. *cute*

but dis design is de last stock ad n it's a bit broken, so i din buy it...hopefully my sis can help me to buy it at other branch, hah....

after dat, we had our dinner at KFC....fast food again,lol..

ordered a snack plate n i stil feel it in my stomach now..haha..

it's finger lickin' good!

while on de way back, one of my fren bought a small bear n gav it to me without our knowledge earlier..

a small suprise..soothes me a bit cuz it's de only gift i got on Valentine's though it was given to me as appreciation for accompany him 2day (dat's wad he told me)....haha..

thanks ya ^^

My "Valentine's" Eve

Thought it would be no fun 2day cuz de plan of going to club wif my coursemates has been canceled...
so i juz stick to de very 1st plan of having dinner at Korean BBQ Chicken wif my girls..glad dat i don hav to ffk them, haha..


out of my expectation, we had a wonderful time 2gether =)

it's been a while since CNY,we din manage to spend our dinner 2gether cuz all of us r busy n tired after class..it's a golden chance 2day, n glad dat Clara is joining us,hehe.. (her bf is so caring n concern about her dat he always disallow her to go out wif us..n she obeys him everytime.. sry for de disclosure Clara^^")


Shereen, Sze Pei, Clara, Carol n me, 5 of us went to Metro Point Kajang as de restaurant is located there..

when i 1st enter, i was quite impressed wif de arrangement n de theme of de restaurant..
basically it is divded into 2 parts, 1 is arranged wif de pink cushions n wooden table which we chose to seat, another wif apple green chairs n black table if im not mistaken..
de atmosphere was quite gud there n de lighting is juz perfect to take nice photographs..hahax!



we're seated separately but juz opposite each other cuz de cushions only can fit 4 persons as there 5 of us..
we ordered our meal using de 'buy 1 free 1' vouchers, dat's de main reason y we came to dis reataurant.. our *money saving plan*, haha..juz joking..
i've ordered Chicken Cutler since Jerk BBQ has sold out..
while waiting for de food to b served, we had a short "photograph session" ...^^"

*****

we juz love to play wif facial expression xD

de 5 of us,

trying so hard to squeeze wif each other juz to fit into de pic ^^

*****

finally, de food is served!

my Chicken Cutler.....^^

de giant paper cup beside me is de popcorn chicken + soda..^^

juz pretending to b like a couple sharing de same drink..haha!

Me n Clara wif an iced lemonade n 7up..

(again, de drink is not mine, it belongs to Carol, haha..)

de food is really nice! wanna try de burger next time, hehe..

kindly recommend u guys to dis restaurant..if u purchase de promotion vouchers, it would b more than worth!

*****

after paying de bill, we had a walk at Metro Point..
thought it would juz b a window shopping cuz there isnt many outlets...

but we end up buying thingS at little stalls...lolx!

i brought dis "Hawaiian Lady Duster"..

wish to clean all de dust away...nice rite? ^^

my new pinky watch!

love at 1st sight!..hahaha...

******

we even get excited over small tings..n dat's wad makes de nite FUN..xD
we've got into dis store but i dunno wad it's call, we're SO excited when we see dis>>>>hundreds of BEARS!!

if only i can have dis as my Valentine's present,

i'll be floating in de air~~~^^

each of us holding a bear in our arms as if they're ours...lol

tink it's cute so i took a pic of it..=)

de things r quite cheap in de store, Rm1 for a wrapping paper,50cents for a small b'dy card...where to find such price for these at other place?n yet, de quality is juz de same,haha..

*****

de day is finally brighten up by dis outing for Korean BBQ Chicken during Valentine's Eve..

cuz b4 dis we're having our Contract Law test n there's 2 more papers coming up next week...it's a mid sem test season now,sob T.T
hope there'll b a plan for tmr, or else i'll be spending my day watching prison break at room....LOL!
last but not least..............

*The Most Favourite Picture of The Day*

hopefully i can slp like them everynite!!..n have sweet dreams...xD

Valentine's..

"Valentine's Day"
it's a phrase dat everyone is familiar wif, de words r simple yet meaningful..

Frankly, to me, i dont hav any special feelings to dis coming season...
y? cuz i don find any purpose of celebrating it since im still S&A...haha!
all i know is of one my uncle's bday falls on Valentine's Day...hehe...
i've read 2 of my frens' recent blogs n oso Kennysia's..seems dat everyone is talking about Valentine's n i've too, got into de trend...lolx...
but im not here to talk about love as im not a great lover who is bald at de back while great thinker balds at de front... (it's not which part of ur head is bald actually, it's juz hair falls problem, hehe..)
so..let's talk about y celebrate Valentine's?

nah....cut it off!

guess wad..Valentine's Day is known as Single Awardness Day too!

yeah! so let's celebrate it!
probably im going out wif a bunch of uni frens..........

mayb we're going to hav Korean BBQ Chicken at Kajang..or celebrate at a club..?depends...hehe

well, im quite looking forward to it ^^
since there r so many single ladies here, y not we juz go for it?hehe...
though there might b some who're in distance relationship...but we don mind la..
as long as we r happy together...=)

so, Happy Valentine's to every of u...
hav a pleasure Valentine's Day..

Cheers!!

(dis pic might look familiar, yeah..it was taken during CNY gathering wif my high skul frens ^^)

Sighx...!

so SUCK SHIT man!!!
dis is de worst performance ever!!sighz.....

***

there was a request to perform a chinese dance during Malam Gemilangan Kejuruteraan...
me n 4 of my frens from Za'ba had joined de performance..but we're going to perform hip hop dance..
there was a rehearsal last nite n no much problem occured..we juz played de song from de laptop cuz they wanted to see how is our dance..
de show is on 2nite...
we had another rehearsal at 5.30pm...i was late.
my fren then informed me dat she gav de wrong song to de technical group n asked me to giv them de song in my pendrive..it's de correct 1..we hav no time to do a rehearsal again cuz d technician has left, we juz practise without de song playing from de speakers..

***

de show has begun..
when it's our turn to perform, de music went wrong!!
it's not like de song we heard during our practises...we tot dat they played de wrong song which was given to them at de 1st time..
we're stunned there n after dat we stop dancing n return to de back stage..
omg!our dance is de 2nd show u know...
n de programme leader almost cried out! de way she talked n her expression...she was so mad n even yell at her coursemates...
imediatey, i passed de pendrive to dat girl n Katherine followed her to make sure dat it is de correct song dis time..
we all r so worried dat they'll play de wrong song again...we agreed dat even if de music is wrong, we'll continue to dance..our excitement from de beginning has turned Down Down down....

after de indian dance n theatre, it's our turn again...
as expected, de song stil sounds different!! all d beats r gone,all de singing parts r gone....!!there's only musics wif no beats...how can we dance well wif it? some parts of our movements bcame unorganized cuz de beat was so soft n we're confused where to start...it's so sucks...
our mood was spoilt by it!

***

after our interpretation of de whole incident...
we suspect dat from de begining, it was de correct song but it was actually played in karaoke version or sth else...
if only we hav de chance to do full rehearsal for a few times, dis will not happen!sigh...
we're so upset, it was out of everyone's expectation...surely we'l b blamed by those who incharged of dis activity...
it's so embarrassed!!we're representing Za'ba....i dunno whether my college's reputation is damaged by us...so sad!!!haiz..
but we'd tried our best to finish de performance...hope dat they wont black-list us...haha...

a bad experienced n memory dat i nvr wanna try to experience again..T.T

..Zzz

i got a test 2mr ---- i cant focus wad i'm reading now

i got a show to run 2mr ---- i hope we can do our best! cuz it's in DECTAR

i got an introduction speech to practise 2mr ---- i haven adjust de script yet

im half dead ---- yet, half alive

i got a heartache ---- it stil hurts

im lack of time ---- there's no extra time for me, god is fair to everyone

i hate somebody ---- part of 'somebody' im not hating it

i nid some1 to care ---- i don wan his care

im in im out, yes n no, up n down, hot n cold...

im bored.....

wad am i doing now?

haiz...don wanna b emo lah..........

continue to study is better..

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this

But at times I get so scared

When I think about the previous

Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it

It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain

But nothing's ever gonna change

Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!

The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You're vain, your games, you're insecure

You love me, you like her

You make me laugh, you make me cry

I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks

When you act like them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

You make me love you

It's awkward and silent

As I wait for you to say

What I need to hear now

Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it

If you text it, I'll delete it

Let's be clear

Oh, I'm not coming back

You're taking 7 steps here

And compared to all the great things

That would take too long to write

I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!

Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's

When we kiss I'm hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry

But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine

When we're intertwined, everything's alright

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like most that you do

You make me love you, you do

i'm lost!!

"I can't live without you"
>>> dis is de BIGGEST LIE i've ever heard!!

it's been a while...
i tot it's over...but suprisingly, i found out dat it's stil bothering me somehow..
b4 i get into my dream last nite, suddenly i tot of him..
still, a lil bit missing of him..de calling n text msgs...mayb i stil cant get used to de life without his existence..
in de evening, i deleted him on facebook...a relief to me..
cuz i'm unsatisfied..
when i saw his shoutout posted "i'm going to del my old blog, u guys pls read it for de last time if u wan" sth like dat, cant rmb de exact 1..
i was totally pissed off..funny huh?
cuz im de one who ended all dis, y am i stil care about wad he did?it's none of my business..
im lost in de middle of nowhere..
someone said im running away..
mayb i did, but i juz wanna run away now n nvr look back!


it started since de day he wanna lose contact wif me..
ok, now he wanna del his blog..
mayb it's nthg but there's sth implied..
i wont mind if he has a happy life now n we're still keep in touch..
but im unsatisfied if his life is better than me n without me!
i might act a bit mean here but dis is how i felt now..
mayb i juz don like to b defeated..i always wanted to b de winner...
but there's nthg wrong to admit it, juz wanna bcom a normal girl..
has he forgotten me?
he finally can put it down n live his life huh? de past has been left behind?

in any event, i should feel happy fo him right?
but sry to say dat im not dat generous...
it's hard to accept someone who said nids u when u leave but live better than u when u're not there...
if he can live without me, y cant i?
if im gone in his world, then he shall not exist in mine too..
i dont wanna live beneath his shadow..
somethin or some1 which is not worth to b kept, i'll forget it...
dat's it!
* the end *

林俊杰 - 期待爱

My Life 一直在等待

空荡的口袋

想在裡面放 一份爱

Why 总是被打败

真的好无奈

其实我 实实在在

不管帅不帅

想要找回来 自己的节拍

所以这一次

我要勇敢 大声说出来

期待 期待你发现我的爱

无所不在 我自然而然的关怀

妳的存在 心灵感应的方向

我一眼就看出来 是因为爱

我猜 你早已发现我的爱

绕几个弯 靠越近越明白

不要走开

幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

幸福的开始 就是放手去爱