"I can't live without you"
>>> dis is de BIGGEST LIE i've ever heard!!
it's been a while...
i tot it's over...but suprisingly, i found out dat it's stil bothering me somehow..
b4 i get into my dream last nite, suddenly i tot of him..
still, a lil bit missing of him..de calling n text msgs...mayb i stil cant get used to de life without his existence..
in de evening, i deleted him on facebook...a relief to me..
cuz i'm unsatisfied..
when i saw his shoutout posted "i'm going to del my old blog, u guys pls read it for de last time if u wan" sth like dat, cant rmb de exact 1..
i was totally pissed off..funny huh?
cuz im de one who ended all dis, y am i stil care about wad he did?it's none of my business..
im lost in de middle of nowhere..
someone said im running away..
mayb i did, but i juz wanna run away now n nvr look back!
it started since de day he wanna lose contact wif me..
ok, now he wanna del his blog..
mayb it's nthg but there's sth implied..
i wont mind if he has a happy life now n we're still keep in touch..
but im unsatisfied if his life is better than me n without me!
i might act a bit mean here but dis is how i felt now..
mayb i juz don like to b defeated..i always wanted to b de winner...
but there's nthg wrong to admit it, juz wanna bcom a normal girl..
has he forgotten me?
he finally can put it down n live his life huh? de past has been left behind?
in any event, i should feel happy fo him right?
but sry to say dat im not dat generous...
it's hard to accept someone who said nids u when u leave but live better than u when u're not there...
if he can live without me, y cant i?
if im gone in his world, then he shall not exist in mine too..
i dont wanna live beneath his shadow..
somethin or some1 which is not worth to b kept, i'll forget it...
dat's it!
* the end *
4 comments:
his shadow or yours?
HIS...
xuanie xuanie xuanie....its really sum mean tat u say tat sry to say..plz let me say a few words ya bt dun b angry ya ^^..u shuldnt act tat way as ppl try hard to forget abt u n live a life for himself..u thought its easy whn u say u love a person n giving him hope n atlast say dun1 him?honestly its really hard to forget a person whn u giv ur best effort of love n faith in tat person as she leave u..if we nv accpet defeats whn are we gona learn the lessons?
plz let me say tis once..a person who love u much n hav alot faith in u wont forget u easily...the past will oways b a hard ting to forget...mayb u can see smile today but his smile wont b as bright as last time as his heart is still sinking in the darkness...we oways act as if we r find but we r not..
if at the first time u were da one who say break up..as u wont mind wat his doin or wat his tinking now...if u can write tis blog out from ur heart...tat means u still care for him n mayb cant put dwn on him as u urself is not realising it..
xuanie...ur still floating in the middle of love..mayb sumday ur cum out from there..who noe? ^^..
im sry if i say anything wrg or mak u unhappy..its jz sum opinion frm me ^^...
thanks for being honest to me...
wad i wrote in my blog is juz de way i felt at de moment, cuz im unhappy so i juz wrote is to make a relief..after dat im ok d..
i wont stop him from being happy cuz he desevered it..
ya, cant denied dat i like de way he cares of me..but we juz cant work it out..
mb im not ready yet or we're not suitable for each other..
anyway, he's stil a fren of mine..
n i nid some time to come out from "there".. haha
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