How does it feel like to be loved and to love? When the person who loves you hold you tight, always be there for you and protect you. When you are willing to sacrifice anything for the person you love and that he is the whole world to you.
Part of me want it to be like this but another part of me wants to go wild like in a love game. Some people said that I'm a party girl. I think it's kinda true because I love my freedom more. But I don't party all the time, I have important and formal stuffs to do.
At the end of the day, I'm hoping for a shoulder to lean on. Ironically, there is none. I only have my own pillow to lay on. I'm 20 now. Is it wrong for me to seek for a partner right now? Is it normal for someone who is at my age now to have the desire of having a lover? Because my heart is trying to scream it out to the world--"I want to have a bf!". Swt.
It's not like I'm an old lady who hasn't get married, but just in case. Haha!
But on the whole, I don't wish it to be without concern, I want it to be according to the plan. That is the hardest part to achieve as today's world has majority females than males. Sadly, females don't have much options.
The life of having a relationship is another story that I can't talk about because who knows what's going to happen next right? It could be the end and the starting of everything OR it's the one and I stick with it. The problem is, I change my mind very soon at the next second at times.
This is just another random post that came out of nowhere. Read and forget. There's nothing good to talk about, unless I've found one. LOL
Part of me want it to be like this but another part of me wants to go wild like in a love game. Some people said that I'm a party girl. I think it's kinda true because I love my freedom more. But I don't party all the time, I have important and formal stuffs to do.
At the end of the day, I'm hoping for a shoulder to lean on. Ironically, there is none. I only have my own pillow to lay on. I'm 20 now. Is it wrong for me to seek for a partner right now? Is it normal for someone who is at my age now to have the desire of having a lover? Because my heart is trying to scream it out to the world--"I want to have a bf!". Swt.
It's not like I'm an old lady who hasn't get married, but just in case. Haha!
But on the whole, I don't wish it to be without concern, I want it to be according to the plan. That is the hardest part to achieve as today's world has majority females than males. Sadly, females don't have much options.
The life of having a relationship is another story that I can't talk about because who knows what's going to happen next right? It could be the end and the starting of everything OR it's the one and I stick with it. The problem is, I change my mind very soon at the next second at times.
This is just another random post that came out of nowhere. Read and forget. There's nothing good to talk about, unless I've found one. LOL
6 comments:
the thing u desire more... more harder to get it.. haha...
i wanna puasa d, control hawa nafsu. haha!
u'r jus bored and lonely gua..haha
i bet so..haha!! never used to be alone because there's always someone at home and we never been left alone. kinda bored when staying alone at the room for a few days and wad i can do is study for exam. i guess dis made me feel it dat way.. ><
yalo..can be understood..smtimes i left alone at 4cim's hse aso cannot stand..nobody to talk to >< we aredy gt used to the big family
yup yup..haha! dat's y lo....but u donid to worry of dat now xD
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