When he's falling for someone.....
This is a song written by Arif.
He said it's for me. (pls ignore the picture at the ending, I'm UGLY!)
No one ever compose me a song...or lyric..
Very happy to get this from him! Yet, I don't know how to respond to him..
Feel so happy and feel so bad..
It's for my family, and maybe myself, I didn't say 'Yes'.
When thought about this, I'm dying little by little, my guiltiness is killing me!
Why would this always happen on me? Like I'm Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
I treat you nicely but when you come closer, I push you away..
I really feel bad for this!
Can't this world don't be of complication? Why must this love thing exist when people happen to be some close and best friend? And when you know that 'thing' exists, you can't act like it doesn't! That's really suffer....
I didn't say 'Yes', there's a lot of reasons...As for the most important one, I don't see our future..because, we share a different religion. Can I make this as an excuse? I'm really really SORRY to say this out! But i really need you to know. It's a permanent issue and we can't change it! It's not your fault or mine either, it just happen when I'm a Malaysian Chinese and you're a pure Indonesian. I'm born in a quite tradition minded family you can say, that's why I don't think we can work out for long.
I'm sorry to say that I insist and this time, I can't just 'live for the moment', the future is too a factor why I start a serious relationship. Even say a 'NO' to you I'm badly hurt! What if we're force to separate in the future because of the above reason or if we gotta go our separate ways after grad? It's really complicated isn't it? Or you can say I think too much. I'm not happy, honestly, to make this decision. But I can't hurt you and me more deeply just for this temporary happiness.
Anyway, I hope you can understand. You say that it's in my hand and now I'm giving you this. I hope you don't mind and when you say you won't, I hope you really mean it! Because I don't want to lose a close friend like you AGAIN!..like how I did last time!
Hon tou ni SORRY!
p/s: for those who think i'm 'acting'...........Listen, I DON'T LIE on my blog! You got it?!
4 comments:
i'll be in a great dilemma if i were u too, xuan.hope everything will work out fine!
thanks wawa ^^
he's the one we met at sunway last tym rite?
u noe, we all jump to conclusion dat he's indonesian chinese though he doesn't really has d chinese looks..
n xuan, i hope evrything will went well..
:p
walao, u all oso noticed him? omg..!!
haha.... ya, everything's cool now. thx for concern beddy =)
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