dont cha dare to...

wad was i tinking...?
wad is my feeling now...?
i left it with a question mark...
i really cant tell wad i wan now..

after all, he did a lil hate me..
no 1 wouldnt feel like dat if sth happened like dis..
but i hav sth to tell him here:
hell, im sure everyone knows wad's de difference between open minded n perverted, don worry about dis problem..
n i can truely tell u dat im NOT wad as u tink..
so u tink u can understand me well?
i tink u r wrong!!
u doesnt even know who knows me de best, or who my best fren is...
did u ever ask?!
after broke up, u went to ask some1 dat din know itsy of my problem, i seriously felt dat it was ridiculous...
n i din say dat i had no feel for u, if ya...i should be vr vr happy right now!

f**k!i juz don believe wad he tinks about me...
wadever...
it's not important now..
cuz he is NOT de 1 who understands me well either...
it's juz an interlude in my life!

well guys, don tink dat im mad...
i juz wanna express my feelings here...
for i hav nonid to hide anyting here cuz it's my blog..
lastly, i really wanna thanks some of my frens for willing ro listen to my problems n believe in me..
though i always play de bad character..
well, get used to it..haha!juz kidding..
dis may b de last time d..
i wil not comment on dis relationship anymore...
*file's closed*

end of 2008

hah...bad ending again...
it's not wad i always wanted..
perhaps i shouldnt giv it a try, or else it wont end up like dis...

im sorry that i gav him hope n then took it away from him
he told me that i made him realised that he has a heart, i taught him wad is love...
n he finally had tears for some1 who is leaving him..
im really glad that i made his live better, though is juz 1 n half months..
but i don tink dat im worth for it, it's nth to b happy n sad about me..

im sorry for wad i did n wad i said..
i made him waited for me for 3hours long dat day..
he was expected for a date that we haven been for 3 weeks long..
but what i did was a crash to him..
i screw up everything!
de words i said hurt him a lot..
but i juz wanna be honest..
i cant lie to him n even myself..so i decided to speak out de true feeling inside me..

i tot if i try, i can giv him more love n treat him wif my whole heart..
but i juz cant make it..
it juz feel not right..
i tink dis is de best way for us..
he deserves a better 1..

dis will be a lesson for me, n him as well..
hurting him might hurt myself too..
not that im not sad cuz i wanted to break up..
but at de same time, i lost myself..
i really hav to settle down now..

new year is coming..
i hope that everything bad wil b gone...
i wanna hav a new start without looking back..
dis wil be de end of 2008..
feel blessed when u hav what u wan..
appreciate everything even if u don own it..
may 2009 brings me a brighter life!

Jungle Trekking

went to Teluk Bahang for jungle trekking wif matric frens during 1st sem break..
it's quite an adventurous journey n we had a lot of fun, though it was very tiring...hehe..
it has been a long while din go for such activity ad..
we walk for 3300meter dat day, from de bottom of de mountain to another side...
until we reach "muka head", it's a seaside actually..
our last station was de light house..
it took us more than 30mins to reach de top i guess..
we got 10 ppl in total, but 6 of us refused to continue de journey wif de rest of them when we rest on de half way to de light house at first..
bcuz we're exhausted ad, we climbed hundreds of rock staircase all de way n there's stil lots of lots of staircase...
it's so tiring n our stamina is not strong enuff..
until then, we saw a family passby, there was a few kids follwing their parents n they seems very energetic...
omg, we lost to those kids!dat's wad i'm tinking by dat time...seriously..lolx..
after we had enuff of rest, we doubt whether to go down n wait for them or to continue to de light house....
finally, we made de decision to de light house..
when we reached de top, i was vr vr vr exhausted!
but i was vr happy dat i came...
cuz de view from de light house is vr beautiful, i can see de boarder of de earth...where de sea de sky r like connected wif each other...
it's really amazing..i'm glad dat we made it n did not giv up on de half way.. or else there'll b regrets.. =)
after dat, we walked down from de hill n rent a boat back to de land..we dont hav any energy left to walk back since we all haven taken our lunch yet n it's almost 2pm...haha..
we had our lunch at Sunrise McD b4 de separation...again, sunrise McD..lolx
we had a gret meal n a great talk,wad a relief....
i enjoy de day vr much...
looking foward for de next challenge ^^

29 Nov 2008 - 2nd date - 16th day

dis is de 4th time we met but de 1st time in Penang..
it was a great day for although it's simple..
we had lunch at Secret Recipe, catched a movie at Gurney n went for a walk at Batu Ferringhi beach..
we cant hang out for long cuz i had a bus to catch to go home..
but i really cherish every moment when i was with him..cuz we dunno when we r able to meet again..
de moment while we're on de ferry..talking n joking around..holding his hand while he's holding mine..when he carried me at de beach n de moment when we r SO close to each other..^^
his hands r big, bigger than mine a lot dat my hands can only cover half of his..haha..
n his feet if compare to mine is juz like father's n daughter's feet, swt.....
he wears earrings on both his earlobe..luckily i pierce more holes than him on my ears ><
i love his eyes...
he got a pair of dazzling eyes which i can see sincere in it,hehe.. his eye lashes even longer than mine i guess...lol.
he really talks alot..
even when he is driving, he talk non-stop..hahaz!
check out his driving skill, he call it as his "ah pek driving skill" cuz he drives very 'safely'..hehe..
dis day is very special to us as it symbolized a special event...it's a secret.. ^^"
we took some pics b4 leavning gurney..
our very 1st pic 2gether =)

a new challenge in my life

13 nov 2008..
never expect dis relationship to happen so fast..
im glad to know him.. he makes me love n too be loved again..
i shall put my faith in dis relationhip too as he does..
but for de very 1st time.. we got a lil arguement yesterday..
it was de 13th day since we both b 2gether..
de argue was unplanned...n it related to 1 of his best fren..
well, wad should i say..
actually im de one who started it cuz i walked out on him after our conversation in msn..
my heart felt uneasy when we're in de conversation, so i left it..
i felt dat there's a gap between me n his fren, a big gap..
mayb cuz de language we use n our background..
i cant pretend to talk naturally...i felt stress n suffocating...
i dunno y it'll happen..
mayb i giv myself pressure cuz we'e different..
i swear i din hate anyone else but myself..i hate myself fo being so lame....
y cant i talk like usually i do? i really hate it when such tings happen..
i left him guilt for hours dat i left without giving any reasons...
i failed to keep my promise to be honest to him..it's juz hard to tell sometimes especially when to protect our pride..
it's juz so hard to say it although it's simple n nth big..
n i too tink it's quite silly....
finally, we bcom cool n chat like normal again..
when i tink back, de feeling is still there..
mayb i'm giving myself too much pressure n too worry about how ppl tink of me..
i hope dat i can overcome dis feeling cuz it's awful..
i juz wanna make it easy juz to communicate wif anyone...
n im not giving up easily in dis relationship..
im sure i can do better than b4...

*stRugGle*

sometimes, when seeing other people's acheivements..
my confidence level decreased..i feel down..
i feel like they're more talented and successful than i am..
i just cant b like them..
makes me feel that im useless..
i mean my contribution is lesser than them, even somtimes i dont contribute at all..
bcuz of dis, i don feel like talking to ppl..
i cant talk n act naturally to them..
there's always an invisible wall for me to present the true me..
i juz cant act like how im acting when facing my old frens...
y is dat happen to me?
it shouldnt b that way...
uni life....huh..
if u meet de wrong person in a wrong affair at de wrong place n time..
there is no fun at all!n u wont b expecting sth other ting to happen....
bcuz it wont happen de way u expected...
n there r many accidents in life..
sth which is not gud suddenly crush on u without any preparation to face it!
recently, i'd met a guy..
he's quite a special person to me..
cant deny dat i hav gud feeling to him too..
but i dare not to express it..
mayb im too worry dat we cant communicate well in real life..
cuz im not eng ed..im not expert in speaking eng....
n de acheivement of mine in dis year, i see none..!
feels like i don hav de qualification to b wif him..
n i tink that im not special enuff...
don hav special skills or sth which im talented in..
im juz a ordinary person who dont hav great achievement..
ok, mayb i look pessimistic now..
but dat's wad bother me now..
im trying to build my confidence level inside me..
i wanna b confident person..
it's an important element to me so dat i can do sth big n great!as i wish..
n do wadever i wan..
if not, even though i wish to do sth, but i juz dont dare to take de action..
n dis will make me regret later..perhaps..
how i wish dat there'll always a person who always support me, lend me a hand n add oil for me when i fall..
i really nid dat strength...

创伤

今天是很有历史性的一天
我的自尊心受创了。。。伤心
之前有一个竞选期要选出moot代表
但是我没有入选
过后听到同学说lec要见我们全部
但是其实他只要见被选的人而已
直到lec说我没被选，名字没在里面我才知道
有名字的都是其他lec提名的
拜托，我懂好不好
结果就这样被人骗了
好伤。。
进discussion room没一下就中杠着书包走出来
而且只有我一人
简直好像Americon Next Idol出局这样
根本就不关我事竟然无端端被人玩弄感情
虽然‘她’可能不是故意的
但是我理她那么多，就是不爽！！
虽然看起来好像没什么
但是那种feel真的。。。你不会想要尝试
弄到我一整天心情不愉快
直到刚刚参朋友去sungai chua吃晚餐
我们吃肉骨茶又叫鱼粥公私
过后又去《我来也》打包
简直是吃到够本
爽！哈哈。。。
现在还很饱着。。嘿嘿
算了，今天朋友提醒我一句
‘生气，是用被人得罪惩罚自己’
所以
放心，我不会生气她了的
嘿嘿
保重啦。。。

DaNce CoNceRt at New Era College

THEME: One Two Three Four..DANCE!!

<壹貳叁肆舞>

Breakdance + sexyologist....

Hip-Hop

Empty Crew

nice one...all girls!! @@

D' Ghetto

My Favourite!!! COOL~

Big person in new era dance club ^^

DOT Crew??

Salsa Dance

guys, please prepare ya tissue..hehe

Unname Crew

the last dance....so high! love it a lot!..hehe

SHINE LIKE THE SUN – DAMIEN LEITH

Where do we start

When the lights gone out

When the passion a flown

Where do we start?

What’s left to say

When our tongues are tired

When the words that lied

Still linger on

When your defences come down

Then I see you still shine like the sun

Brighter than anyone

Yeah you shine like the sun

You’re still the only one

When will we sing?

When will we laugh?

Have we left space

For second triesIs this the end?

Is this a close?

What’s left behind

Are jaded lines

When your defences come down

Then I see you still shine like the sun

Brighter than anyone

Yeah you shine like the sun

You’re still the only one

Don’t, please don’t stay

That this time is time best spent being alone

When your defences come down

Then I see you still shine like the sun

Brighter than anyone

Yeah you shine like the sun

You’re still the only one

Brighter than anyone

Yeah you shine like the sun

You’re still the only one

tuFf dAeZ..

it's hard on me..
i've been so busy in dis two days ..
some unhappy tings happened, yet i cant act in my emotion as i got 2 presentations to go...n an audition..

[mon-13.10.08] was a totally freak-out day for me..
i reached de library at 10am..
me n my consti partner discuss about our memorial bcuz we hav to submit it b4 12pm..
n all of us juz got to know at de last min dat we had to submit de cases referred in our arguements..
it's like so shit man..de cases is not only a piece of paper but may be 10 or 20 sheets..
we immeditely find de cases from de library law reports n went to de photocopy section..
omg, so many ppl queueing to photocopy de cases, articles, statute n wadever law craps..
me n clara waited for 30min for our turn..dis is ok..
de worse is when i find out dat actually my copy-card juz left 15 credits..omg!!!wtf..
juz 15!!
it's nt enuff for a case oso..
but luckily my frens got de card so we did share it..

when i was busy photostating de cases, my partner borrowed my pendrive to save some documents of our PBL to print it..
since dat later..
i NEVER see my pendrive again..
it's GONE!! man..de ting i hang on it was my favourite chain!
it's wooden made n very unique bcuz there was actually a guan yin n kitab carved on de wood..
n i bought it for Rm20....now it's gone juz like dat..
stil, i hav no time to feel down bcuz i stil hav to continue de PBL ting..

dinner time, we went to eat at Under Big Tree as usual..but it rained heavily n there's thunder n lightning until it went black out while we're stil eating...lolx
at nite, Zaba's chinese society, Yi Hua hav a meeting for de new AJK..
i hold de post as assistance of de performance leader..
well, it's de1st post i hold in zaba..n i'm quite satisfied wif it..
from now on, i'll hav a new responsibility..
to lead de group members n to assist my leader..
hopefully we can do it well ^^

after back from de meeting, i rearranged my script for tmr consti presentation..
i was quite worried about it cuz i nvr present in satisfactory..
i oso worried aobut de mooting wif seniors bcuz i hav insufficient time to prepare it..
b4 slp, it was already 2.30 in de midnight..
i practise de guitar song a while which i decided to play during de audition..
i borrowed de guitar from siao wei, thx her lots ^^

[tues-14.10.08] was really a tough day...
i had to face 3 judges 2day..

1st: Mooting as there was a selection for mooters for de ICRC moot competition

i juz completed my scrpit 30mins b4 de moot started..
our senior trained us in advocacy skills n 2day we had to present in front of them..
there was 4 of them >> Domini, Choy, Aaron n a girl..they're so talkative n in some way, funny..
i tink de moot competition which they'd participated last year had made them bcom very close to each other, juz like siblings..
well, after de presentation, Domini said dat i was loud n clear n i composed myself well..
i was quite happy when i heard it, seriously...^^

2nd: Consti presentation at moot court in PTSL
after lunch, me, Clara, Carol n Sze Pei went to PTSL 2gether as my presentation starts at 3pm..
but normally we r not following de time cuz it has always been delayed..
we presented in a very formal way where everyone has to dress-up like a lawyer or judge..
n there was 2 clerks in-charge of de court's flow n oso de time used in presenting by us, basically each of us is given 4mins but 5mins for judge..
our lec interrupted us while we're presenting...
but i felt quite relief bcuz i managed to ans her questions..though i sound silly wif my ans..but dont bother bout it la..hehe..
after de presentation, it's already 5.20pm sth..i missed de arabic class..
i went back to college after dat n i only got 1 hour to prepare b4 de audition..
of course i take de time to practise de song, for about 30mins...only.....

3rd: New tunes audition at pusanika
it's show time...time to sia sui....Zzz..
de instrument i used was a guitar n i played de song Qing Tian which is de most familiar song for me..
it's so so sux man! cuz i seldom practice it..
those ppl who went to audition i tink they're much more stronger than me n really had de talent of potential to be selected..quite envious of them..
u guys should check out emillia's singing..
she;s brilliant, she sings like an angel...haha...
yea, it's true, i love her voice very much..
soft n sweet ^^
wad am i doing there?
juz go there n let ppl laugh..Ha Ha HA~
lost my mood after de audition..aikx, so sad..
but wadever result it is, i'll try to b happy cuz happy go lucky ma..hehe..
dat's y i post it here..
hope dat de unhappy feeling wil disappear soon......
now i really understand dat "practise makes perfect"..
it is not impossible to b perfect =)

A DrAma ^^

attend UKM Pesta Tanglung stage show 2nite...
2gether wif Ying Yi, Beng n his classmates n my dear Yu Zhen =)
such a long time din meet up wif her ad, miss de time we spent 2gether at KMK so much.......
finally we got dis golden chance to sit 2gether n eat roti canai at de cafe n watch de show 2gether....

it's actually a drama which last for 2 hours more...
acted by UKM students from both main campus n branch...
it's a great n successful show i can say..
n it taught us some values due to it's theme, 落地生根 sth like dat...
de story is about a life time of a guy, named 蔡根..when he ws young until he past away...
it was so sad when it comes to his love story bcuz he met a girl who cannot b 2gether wif him n they was separated apart..
yet, dis guy is too loyal to his love n he remained unmarried until he old..
n de 2nd touching part is de love between de father n de son..
he adopted his best fren's son n treat him like his own..
although there was a conflict between them when his son finds out dat de father wasnt his real father..
but de ending is gud bcuz a fire pulls their relationship backwards n yet they bcom closer than b4...
n b4 he dies, he got de chance to meet his old lover cuz his son arranged it for him!....de feeling is so gud when dis scene appears...

i'm so glad to watch such a great show wif my best kmk gang n my berry sis..haha...
i enjoy de moment while watching de drama..
although de opening is quite bored but we craps a lot during de opening...lol..
moreover,de actors n actresses really acted so well n convincing..de dancers oso dance gracefully on de stage..
thx them vr muc for dis gud show..which i felt vr worth to watch it wif my Rm8....haha..
hope to join de show next year if can..hehe..

btw, exam is coming soon...
3 weeks left..
but i stil dn study yet...
i'm too relaxing ad.....
god pls help me~~~ T.T

H U M A N

people in dis world r realistic...

true frens r hard to find when u're growing older...

i tink dat my true frens r mostly from primary or high skul period..

i wanted to tell all of them dat i really appreciate them in my life n dat i love them very much =)

it seems a lil bit impossible to find true frens in my Uni life or career life in advance..

mayb there r some, but i doubt dat whether they can b trusted..

cuz god knows wad r in their mind..

n for love..

i cant giv any comment..lolx..

but i saw my fren's experience...

de question is, is true love exist?

or love is juz for sex??

i cant tell wad they really want...

but for me, i seek for true love..^^

human bcom greedy when they have a gud life..

wadever tings they got in their life cant satisfied them..

give them a hp, they ask for pc...

give them a laptop, they ask for car..

dis is call human nature...u cant change it.....

sometimes we got a lot of gud tings dat it is too common n too easy to get it..

so we dunno how to appreciate them..

if i ask u a ques, is de moon or de sun more important? wad wil b ur ans?

some wil say is de moon bcuz it provide us light in de dark..

there r a few people who treat u gud when u need it...thus u'll say they r gud people..

let say u're starving outside without money in ur pocket.

a hawker knew ur situation n he cook for u without charging any bucks...

u might tink dat he is a gud person..

but don forget, did ur mom charge u for ur everyday meal?

can a hawker cook for u everyday without charging u ??

tink deeper..

it's de meaning hidden which i wanted to share wif u all..

appreciate de people around u..

not only those who treat u gud when u r in need..but those who treat u gud all dis time..

u got wad i mean?

p/s: i got dis ting from a mail actually..

feel like sharing it here..so i post it..hehe..~

U may Think it's SilLy...~

it's 1.38am now..
i'm stil feeling so excited..
keep viewing back my friendster pic..
i'm juz so satisfied with them!
not bcuz de pics r pretty....erm, mayb dat's a part of de reason..hehe..
cuz it's been so long i din get to take pics wif my old buddies..old frens...
so happy to meet them again..=)
although de time we gather was short, but it gave me long lasting gud feelings...
hehe..
looking forward for de next break..
b4 dat hav to go back to UKM n suffer until finals end....
lolx...
gud luck n add oil la...
gambateh ^^

p/s: dl-ing jay's latest album..heard it's nice..hehe
should try it out~

TrIp to HatyAi

woke up at 4.30 in de morning...
depart at 5am ++ n we had our breakfast at bak beh..1st time take my breakfast so early, at dawn..swt..
a fren of kat's mom b our tour guide today..^^
each of us hav to pay Rm64 fo de transport fees..
hmm, i only got Rm200 in my purse..
means dat left Rm130 to convert to baht..haha
Rm130 = 1260 baht
is dat enuff for me..??
definitely not!wad to do?muz limit my budget la..haha...sad~

damn many ppl today, we waited at de kastam for 2hours only can pass through....
such a long queue..
so many travelling buses n cars...
most of them r chinese..
guess they all r free on 1 oct..raya falls on dis date ^^
surely we all slp in de car bcuz all of us din hav a gud slp last nite..haha..

btw, quite happy n satisfied today..
i bought a pair of shoes for only RM20!!!my god!
where to buy shoes for only Rm20 in m'sia?n somemore de shoes is nice...although it's plain..haha..
n bought a shirt for Rm10, which is a couple shirt actually but i juz bought de girl's 1..lol..
nice design n de quality quite gud...really worth!wahaha..
n then...bought a beach pants for Rm15..
ohya, there's a sale a watson..
we all went so crazie cuz 1 box of large chocolate stick for juz Rm4...walao..
u can never find it in m'sia with such price!!
really mad d, lol..

de last ting i bought wif my 3rd last 10baht..bread~

de most enjoyable moment is de massage time..
we went to massage after shopping at ying yong street..
we prefer whole body massage instead of foot massage...
1hour Rm20..
we do it in 2 hours, so de total we paid is Rm40..
not bad lar..
really enjoy de massage...
feel like our blood circulation has bcom better..hahaha..

after massage-ing, feels good ^^

dinner time...i tink 'walao' is best to describe it ad...xD
we had a buffet steamboat for our dinner...
u can take wadever u wan n as much as u wan if u can finish all of them..
there're so many choices dat u cannot try all..
besides de raw food, there oso got chendol, laksa, huan zu teng n many more...
juz take wad u wan n eat...
of course, de price really cheap!
for wad we had eaten, if in alor star, dunno cost how much ad mayb more than 50 bucks...!
each of us juz paid Rm10.70 for our meal...
really walao rite??hahaa....
ya, dat's it...very worth! should recommend my frens n family to eat there ad if they got go....lol...
next time i'll make sure dat i'll prepae enuff money when go hatyai..haha..
cuz actually i got no money for dinner ad..
luckily chu ying paid for me 1st..lol..
paise nia..

PART OF de dishes...lol

after de meal...how hard we finished it cuz too much ad!swt..

dis is one of de days which i had a lot of fun in my 2 weeks holiday...
de previous 1 is yam cha wif my besties n gathering in penang..
not many ppl go actually, but quite fun cuz got to meet de crazy kmk gang..haha..
another gathering wif ex-classmates on friday..
i tink after dat is de end of my raya holidays...
got 5 presentation when class starts...
god!feel like dying..aikx...
dat's my study life in uni...lol..

MuSic CaMp @ PoRt DiCksOn

20, 21 Sept 2008

there was a music camp held by New Tunes at PD , UKM..

zaba participants got me, shereen, dai lou, mei kwan, shiau wei, yi shyun...lolx..

erm..quite enjoy at de 1st day..

but very tiring cz we don hav much time to rest..

nite, we have to practise our performance for de next day somemore..so we slp late..

plus, i went to shereen's room to play cards wif her group members until 4am..lolx..

i juz slpt for 3 hours..

i'm de latest to wake at on de next day..haha..

汤小康老师 visited us n gav a talk..

after dat each group got performance for him to watch n leave comment..

although we train til like hell on de previous nite, but it ended up like shit for me..

de committee wanted us to make our performance as short as possible..

but don take dis as an excuse k?

no matter how short de time given, we should try our best! not simply throw a ting out..

if it is lame, make it de best lame ting..

don shit in front of me..

if u wanna sing without following de tempo of de instrument played, better not to play it..!

im not mind about whether it's embarrasing onot..

it's about teamwork!

my group members did disappointed me n i got a bit mad wif them actually..

but nvm la, juz a 2 days 1 nite camp..

might not see most of them after dat..

汤小康老师when giving his talk

however, de most satisfactory part is "忘歌词" which we had to change lyrics of a song n present it..

our group changed Jay Chou's 爸，我回来了！

i personally feel dat de lyric quite not bad..haha..

n my group leader Yi Shyun is a harmonica genius..he is so talented, he plays harmonica very well..

as wad Mr. Tang Xiao Kang said, de most attractive of him is when playing harmonica =)

b4 back, i managed to rearranged my emotion, try to pull de happy me back..haha..

n i did it..=)

after back college, i pack my tings cuz wanted to go to 4cim's place..

de college is so empty n silence..

most ppl ad back home..

i carry a backpack wif laptop inside, a hang-luggage n a pack of books al de way to take rapid n ktm..which nearly broke my arms..

quite 佩服 myself 1, a tough girl..haha!

reached villawangsamas finally..
slpt at 8.30 dat nite..

imagine how tired am i ...lol

Took photos wif Husky b4 back..so exciting when see it =p

on de way back to UKM =)

New Tunes seniors ^^

Confession

everytime when i wanna post a blog..
i'll tink dat wad's de purpose of it?
y am i posing a blog..
if i'm writing wad inside my thoughts, i don really hope ppl to read it..
as ppl wil know wad's really inside me..
but now, i decided to post blog whenever i wan2..
a way of expressing my feeling..
doesnt care wad i wrote about...
it's my feeling on dat particular moment.

for a year n a few months more i'm stil single..
i don giv a chance to b unavaible..
y?
actually i dunno wad's de true reason..
mayb i juz scared to get hurt, hate of de feeling of dissapointment..or sacre to hurt ppl..
i really don hav de confidence to b in relationship again..

i read one of his blog 2day..
it's written on valentine's day..
i rmb last year valentine's...he was in de ns camp..
i past de day all alone, no dating, no movie...
but i got his present, n a card..
i did keep it til now..i love to collect greetings cards n present actually..^^
cuz they're memorable..

after read his post...i felt really bad..
after so long, he's stil hurt...
i hurt a person who loved me so much..
i wonder if i really lost my heart by hurting him so deely..
i blamed myself..
although tears din drop on my face, but it's bleeding in my heart...
am i wrong to end up our relation?
how could i?
i dunno wad's my feeling to him now..but i really felt guilty to him..
very very guilty instead..
he really is a gud guy..hard to find some1 like him anymore..
or mayb i wil never find a guy like him anymore..
i'm a lucky one but i gave up my choice..
there's no turning back for me, it had been so long n we got our own life now..
although i stil concern bout him but i din show out,i don hav de right to concern him..
i rather he hates me..
sometimes i wish dat we can bcom best fren like last time we used to..
but it's IMPOSSIBLE now..

heard from fren dat mayb he wil hav a gf soon..
it's a gud news for me..
cuz i hope dat he can walk out de darkness part of his life..
n forget everyting about me..
i'm really sorry...sorry for wad i did..
im so late! cuz i juz read ur post after half a year..
you dont nid to say sorry to me..
i know it's all my fault..
if de girl turns out to b ur gf..i hope dat dis time, u wil hav a sweet ending..
wish u happy always, my prayers wif u always..

1 Litre of Tears

这部戏启发了我

不是问题大不大，而是自己怎么样看待问题
只要相信自己可以，就一定办得到！
就算遇到挫折，跌倒了，只要再站起来就好
别气馁，别放弃

就算知道事情的结果如何不好，也要尽自己的能力做到最好，不要给自己机会对不起自己

还有，别怪老天对自己不公平
要是自己没尽能力去办能办到的事，那就不可以怪天对自己不公平
因为是自己没好好去把握机会。。

当事情不顺利时，感到很痛苦的时候
就尽情地哭吧
哭过后就要想办法解决问题
世界上没有什么事实做不到的
要相信自己！

最重要的是。。
要正面看待问题，要以正确的心情来面对问题
只要心情是对的，我相信什么事情都能解决
克服问题时也不会感到那么辛苦

要爱惜自己，珍惜眼前的一切
当你错过了这片彩虹，可能再也见不到下一片了。。。

Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realize that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the pathI believe in

And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in timeAnd even though

I really love youI'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is

I'll be fine without you

Yes I will

dont say you love me.. if you dont

Got introduced to you by a friend

You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend

Yes you did oh

The next thing I know we're down at the cinema

We're sitting there, you said you love me What's that about?

You're moving too fast, I don't understand you

I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend

No I can't

The best I can do is tell you to talk to me It's possible, eventual

Love will find a way

Love will find a way...

Here's how I play, here's where you stand

Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been

I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice

Take it slow, you keep pushing me

You're pushing me away

Pushing me away...

Don't say you love me

You don't even know me

If you really want me

Then give me some time

Don't go there baby

Not before I'm ready

Don't say your heart's in a hurry

It's not like we're gonna get married

Give me, give me some time

the Deepest Thought of Me..

whole day staying in my room..

start tinking nonsense d....

i miss my frens a lot!!!

miss da old times....

miss my live since secondary skul....

miss my besties, buddies n my family....

it's been a long time i din meet with them ad since i've been to ukm...

except some of my matric frens!

i really miss them a lot.........................

although i got some good frens here but we cannot play and act crazily like we used to when high skul..

everyone is seems serious on their studies, everyday concern about wad they study, tutorial and de test..

i'm so sick of it! it makes me tension..

argh~~help!!

life is so mean...

sometimes i oso miss de moments when in love..

it's been decades since de last time i'm in a relationship..

i almost dunno how is de feeling when someone is in love..

i've been treating ppl very 'cold' to those who tackle me..

dunno y, but it's an auto reflect by me...

i might hav to change it..

all these times i done a lot of things by myself, travel alone, solve my problems by myself...

now..i hav to deal with all these law subjects, take care of my life and hande all de problems i meet here!..

i'm getting tired......

is there a shoulder for me to lean on.....?

lol...

perhaps it's de chance for me to learn to b independent..^^

faith or fate?it's all up to me ..

thought it'll be a happy day..
but it ends up vr unlucky and unhappy...
wanted to enjoy our weekends after all those activities and the most suffered first week of tutorial..
but many unlucky things happened, sze pei lost her maybank atm card at mid valley, but it's not over yet..
when back, she and joes nan realised that they've lost their handphones after we entered the komuter..
everyone was angry but what to do?all we can do is to console each other not to be sad and forget about the sad cases..
on a second, we might be laughing and joking with each other..but once something bad happens by the next second, together we feel down..
and we cant change what had happened...
we must leave the past and head to our future..
"always look at the brighter side"..this is what sze pei told me, and it's quite useful ^^
i realised that, fate may be changing your life in any seconds..
but how you got to face it, it's important..
do what you wanted to..
no hesitating, or else you'll lose the chance...forever!
appreciate the people and things surrounding you..especially friends and family..
all the materials are just temporary assets, but true friends and family are out eternal assets that we cant bare to lose..
they are the one who can help us to get up when we fall..
love them and protect them..
appreciates..is what that matters...
although unlucky things keep happening, but i'll try to make myself happy...because i believed that happy go lucky..
although i got negative comments from the lecturer, took wrong bus and waited for an hour for the bus at night..but as long as i'm feeling happy, all these deals are nothing!..
if you feel that you're imperfect, practise more then..
because practise makes perfect!
be optimistic and always think to the positive way..
although the problems that i'll meet in the future will be tougher and tougher, but at the same time, i'll become stronger and stronger...
and i can handle all the problems that i deal with!
believe me..because i'm a future lawyer! =)

Menu Of The Day ^^

After bowling tournament at Metro Point Kajang, me n my team members had our lunch at Station Kopitiam..
We din win any of de tournament,hehe..
hopefully can try again next year!
juz gain experience dis year...
dis meal is our reward..hahaz...